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delicately i have not felt this way in a few pages of a calendar, some day things will come together but when they do is when it won't matter anymore, because that's how it always is. it's like an arrangement of two identical electronic devices that that are set in opposite phase in order to minimize distortion. i just want to feel whole again and i'm not sure how to accomplish that. what is time? i don't understand it, i tried to sit down and thoroughly comprehend the contents of time and time alone but it just seemed so fake and unrealistic. the thing that makes me so scared is how something can feel so warm until you actually get close enough to touch and you get burned. i feel like my cat because she loves to sit by the pool and get her paws wet but she always ends up falling in the pool and almost dying. she never learns. i will keep repeating this for as long as i live.