summer
well the start of the summer has been decent.. to day i hung out with jill and we baked a cake and made chocolate covered strawberries, very niceeee haha..
ive been thinking a lot. and it pisses me off. i hear comments left and right.. and they kill me. i always stick up for this person. im always defending them no matter what, and they dont even realize it. they just dont seem to care about me at all, and i hate it. it really pisses me off because i try so damn hard to make everyone happy, except myself, but i know this person makes me happy, except when they piss me off. its a mass of confusion. my brain is so bothered by. i think about the person often, talk about them often, and still it doesnt matter right? its all just a waste of time..
god i need ash..
....
i wrote this :
words are short and fiery on a day like today
sending blazing fire through my core
i see you standing near the door of the exit
where do you go my love? where are you now?
do i follow or just lay low?
my heart says to follow though my muscles tense
i tremble slightly, for you're eyes make this so hard
out into the street, the rain is falling down on you
you stand there gazing up into a dark sky
i'd do anything to be able to hold you, to feel you
i walk slowly towards you, rain splashing my soul
nothing is stopping me now
i tremble harder as i take each step closer to you
i reach out my hand and place it on your shoulder
feeling you, a shock runs through my body
as if i were struck there by lighting..
though there was no lightning to be seen
just two children growing up in the pouring rain
gaining the feeling of the lightning of love
feeling so sharp so strong
this one way street will hold my destiny
silence rips me apart
i dont know what’s falling harder
the rain or my tears
i pick up pace running from rejection
i see the lights but i keep on going
BAM !
my world is now shattered
from above, i see you run towards the site
the casualty is one
tears run down your cheeks as i drift away
you held me, knowing I was gone forever
blood trickling down my forehead
you kiss me once leaving me to eternal happiness
i loved you, and in that moment you knew it
its sort of to you all know who.. ;x
ive been thinking a lot. and it pisses me off. i hear comments left and right.. and they kill me. i always stick up for this person. im always defending them no matter what, and they dont even realize it. they just dont seem to care about me at all, and i hate it. it really pisses me off because i try so damn hard to make everyone happy, except myself, but i know this person makes me happy, except when they piss me off. its a mass of confusion. my brain is so bothered by. i think about the person often, talk about them often, and still it doesnt matter right? its all just a waste of time..
god i need ash..
....
i wrote this :
words are short and fiery on a day like today
sending blazing fire through my core
i see you standing near the door of the exit
where do you go my love? where are you now?
do i follow or just lay low?
my heart says to follow though my muscles tense
i tremble slightly, for you're eyes make this so hard
out into the street, the rain is falling down on you
you stand there gazing up into a dark sky
i'd do anything to be able to hold you, to feel you
i walk slowly towards you, rain splashing my soul
nothing is stopping me now
i tremble harder as i take each step closer to you
i reach out my hand and place it on your shoulder
feeling you, a shock runs through my body
as if i were struck there by lighting..
though there was no lightning to be seen
just two children growing up in the pouring rain
gaining the feeling of the lightning of love
feeling so sharp so strong
this one way street will hold my destiny
silence rips me apart
i dont know what’s falling harder
the rain or my tears
i pick up pace running from rejection
i see the lights but i keep on going
BAM !
my world is now shattered
from above, i see you run towards the site
the casualty is one
tears run down your cheeks as i drift away
you held me, knowing I was gone forever
blood trickling down my forehead
you kiss me once leaving me to eternal happiness
i loved you, and in that moment you knew it
its sort of to you all know who.. ;x