blah
so today was relatively good.. i guess. im sitting home doing nothing but oh well.. and you know when you finally meet that one person that makes ur day so much better.. and you just feel so complete around them..and then all of a sudden it goes kuputz. yeah..tom broke up with me.. and i cant blame him..i understand where hes coming from, and i respect how he feels.. yesterday i kept thinking i wish this was new york.. and i guess because i knew in the back of my head this was going to be happening. he started to get quiet, and you can just tell with these kind of things..women's intuition i think its called.. i kept wishing yesterday in philly that i was new york because thats when i realized i liked tom.. i mean i really liked him a lot.. and i still do.. things dont blow over that quickly.. i'm a little upset.. but were going to try being friends, which hopefully will work out fine.. and wont end up like things with marc did.. todays ashleys birthday.. so HAPPY BIRTHDAY LOVE.. and now i'm off to try and get rid of this empty/naseous feeling in the pit of my stomach.. i suddenly feel so alone again..
xo ajb
xo ajb