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[lemon_seamonkey]

So last night and today really sucked. We'll skip last night and start off with today. It started out with me waking up late. Awesome. I just love waking up late and being rushed to get out the door. Tons of fun. So I get on the bus and I get the seat next to the broken window. That was awesome because it felt like it was -40 degrees where I was sitting. So I finally get to school after I had to listen to everyone scream and yell on the bus because the batteries in my MP3 player died and come inside the building and head to my locker. I trip going up the stairs. Awesome. This day is really starting to turn around, eh? No of course not. I get to school and the first bell rings. I see Abby walking in the hall with Justine and Cassie and we looked at each other for a few seconds then she turned the corner and went away, didn't even wave or say hi or anything. I figured she was mad at me which made my day a million times worse.. Sweet stuff. So Madame Wilson goes to check our homework and I realize that I forgot my book in my locker. I go out to get it and what happens? Of course all of my books are gone. Niiceeeee. So I got a zero on my homework and I'm bookless and lost the whole class. Nice. Second period was alright but ehh.. English was alright. The girl in Romeo and Juliet has major cleavage.. holy shit. Study hall sucked of course. I go to the library and what happens? It gets full right when I'm like the next person in line. Awesome. So I go back to class and did nothing. The bell rang and I went to algebra. I can't concentrate at all obviously because I have a million things going on in my head. Then with my luck, people tell me we have an exam. Awesome. I think I did alright on it but I probably just jinxed myself.. oh well. On the way to lunch I saw Abby in the hall and she sorta gave me what seemed like a forced, obligated, half-assed hi, so I figured that she's probably even more mad at me than she was earlier. Hurrah. Lunch was funny. Then I went to study hall and Sean got banned from the library for ten days for "chatting". The librarian is a dike. errr I hate her. The next ten days in the library will not be the same without Sean. So study hall ends and I make my way upstairs to science. I didn't see Abby like I normally do.. That was somewhat depressing. So I get to science and am relieved to find we're watching a movie. The movie was boring and I could barely stay awake. I went to gym after and was wicked tired. I tried squatting 285 at the end of class but I was too tired.. My knee sorta just gave out. The final bell rang and I was happy. Hurray. I go to the bus and end up having to stand. I saw Abby walk by. I do everyday actually.. and I always have the urge to open the window and get one last hey or bye or something. I don't though. I'm a loser and end up just sitting on the floor and try not to be noticed. The ride home was long. But I finally got home and came inside and played drums for a while. I broke another cymbal. Whoo hoo. I talked to Abby for a few minutes and found out that she thought I was mad at her. So neither of us are mad at each other. Abby is my hero, she made me feel better with just a few words. Thank you ms. Abby <3. I talked to Christy too. She helps me be happy too.

Today, I also realized that I really don't care anymore. I don't care about school, or homework, or anything like that. I realized that no matter what I do, no matter how well I do it, I'll never really go anywhere and my parents will never be proud of me. It's time like this that I wish I could just find someone special to hang out with whenever and tell anything to. But someone who is more of a friend, you know? Yeah whatever. It doesn't matter. Nothing does anymore. I'm done complaining. So yeah..