Peace in Mind and Heart
Is it so difficult to achieve?
I want to stay here, with Grace...I love her so much and I have so many things in the works here in Sacramento...possible self employment, the potential to make over $1000.00 a month, happiness, and just waking up next to Grace and being able to kiss her is more than enough reason to stay here.
But of course, there is always a debate raging in my head. In my heart, as well.
My parents tell me every time I talk to them, or email them that they miss me so much...my nephew writes me tearjerking letters saying that he misses me and wants me to come home, my sister and my grandmother and my mother are all trying to get me home...and all I want to to is try to make everyone happy...
I do miss my friends...and I am trying very hard to make it back this summer to go on a Summer Trip with them for a week or so...
I like it here in California, I love being with Grace...
Why can't I make everyone happy? Why can't I find that perfect balance? I always used to be able to before...
I miss my dad the most...
Damn these feelings...damn my soft heart...
I will continue to try to make them see...this is where I want to be.
-Phantomatt