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I still have a really hard time believing that you're gone.
I'll admit that I don't think about it all the time now, but whenever I feel anything, I think about you. Even when I am experiencing great things and everything is going well, I think about you and how you aren't here to share it with me, and how you never will see it.
I guess I'm mad at you right now... you shouldn't have left without spending more time with me. I feel like I've been robbed of a father daughter relationship. If you were going to die this way, why didn't you at least stop working for a while to live it up?
I'm learning from you.
I will never work so hard that I forget to enjoy life and the people around me. Even if it means I am a failure. I won't ever be so proud as to let the prospect of looking weak and wrong convince me to end my life. You promised me you wouldn't do this. I won't ever make a promise I can't follow through with.
I hate thinking about this, because in the end it all comes back to how YOU DIDN'T HAVE TO DO THIS. THERE WERE SO MANY OTHER WAYS OUT.
Who cares if the whole world sees you as a failure...I was all that mattered to you, anyway. I thought the world of you, until you proved to me that my opinion meant nothing. I still think the world of you, but now I wonder if you deserve it.
I'll admit that I don't think about it all the time now, but whenever I feel anything, I think about you. Even when I am experiencing great things and everything is going well, I think about you and how you aren't here to share it with me, and how you never will see it.
I guess I'm mad at you right now... you shouldn't have left without spending more time with me. I feel like I've been robbed of a father daughter relationship. If you were going to die this way, why didn't you at least stop working for a while to live it up?
I'm learning from you.
I will never work so hard that I forget to enjoy life and the people around me. Even if it means I am a failure. I won't ever be so proud as to let the prospect of looking weak and wrong convince me to end my life. You promised me you wouldn't do this. I won't ever make a promise I can't follow through with.
I hate thinking about this, because in the end it all comes back to how YOU DIDN'T HAVE TO DO THIS. THERE WERE SO MANY OTHER WAYS OUT.
Who cares if the whole world sees you as a failure...I was all that mattered to you, anyway. I thought the world of you, until you proved to me that my opinion meant nothing. I still think the world of you, but now I wonder if you deserve it.