I sort of want him back
Today I talk to my ex over the phone. My God how much I miss him. Am I in love with him? I'm so cofused but I want him back But affraid thats not good for me but its seems he's matured lately. I can't believe I'm saying this. I use to cry so much about how I hurt him and I'm going to be the better person and apologize. I don't think he'll take me back so I'm not going to even try. I'll just be his friend and I'll see where that leaves us. I think I playing iti smart this time. I was thinking that maybe I he's the one I should probably have sex with him but I can't do it because I'm still waiting. I don't think I should get my emotions in a bunch. I'm beginning to because such a better person everyday. I have to tell myself this because it's so true. I'm a good person and my heart is truly something special and I've deny that for a long time. I such a sweetheart. I can't help myself. Thats just me. I sit back thinking how far I come and I'm doing this that 40 year haven't done yet. I'm getting my life in order and I'm scared but I not affraid to jump of a bluiding if I have to.