A vacation sounds good right about now
Ok, so I haven't wrote in awhile. I haven't had any time. There is not enough hours in the day to deal with everything. I work non-stop. Not necessarily because I have to, but because I want and need to. I just got my paycheck today, and I worked 17 hours overtime. I worke every single day. No breaks... I pretty much didn't even have time to pee at work. After I get out of work I go directly to school. And when I get out of school, I just feel like ending it. I'm so exhausted. I had a physical breakdown last Friday at work. Right before I was going to go home, I just broke down in tears. I couldn't handle it. Plus I didn't eat all day, so I wasn't feeling to good. A little dizzy.
I dont have time to eat anymore. I'm lucky if I eat one meal. Which is like at 10 o'clock at nite. Which is really not good for a person. But that is the only time I have. The past couple of mornings i wake up sick to my stomach. lol morning sicknes... but no, for real. I've been really nauseaus. Then after a couple of hours I feel fine. It all goes away. I don't get it. And I think something is physically wrong with me. I don't get hungry. And obviousy if you don't get hungry you aren't going to eat, am I right!? I think my stomache has shrunk so much, I might not even have one. I think it's gone. My stomache no longer exists. I need to go to a doctor! but doctors = needles, and yeah, those I don't do. So I really don't know what to do. I really have confused, and frustrated, and just blah!!!
I dont have time to eat anymore. I'm lucky if I eat one meal. Which is like at 10 o'clock at nite. Which is really not good for a person. But that is the only time I have. The past couple of mornings i wake up sick to my stomach. lol morning sicknes... but no, for real. I've been really nauseaus. Then after a couple of hours I feel fine. It all goes away. I don't get it. And I think something is physically wrong with me. I don't get hungry. And obviousy if you don't get hungry you aren't going to eat, am I right!? I think my stomache has shrunk so much, I might not even have one. I think it's gone. My stomache no longer exists. I need to go to a doctor! but doctors = needles, and yeah, those I don't do. So I really don't know what to do. I really have confused, and frustrated, and just blah!!!