down down baby.....

Feb 22, 2004 23:38

I hit a down a few hours ago. I haven't had a down for a few months. I thought I was getting better. I guess not.... And what started my down this time? My own mother, go figure. Nothing new, getting dragged down by my own mother. You'd think I'd be use to it by now. I just can't help it. To think someone can say such cruel and heartbreaking things to a person. To have that person be your own blood, your own mother. The one person who should always be on your side no matter what, the person who should be lifting your spirits, not bring you down, making you think less of yourself. Now I remember why I left. Why I felt like I couldn't stay here. To get away from things that were not helping me. I wanna leave again, I don't care where, I just want out. I wish I could just fast forward my life. I wish I could just be content. Content with everything in my life. Instead I'm stuck here. I'm stuck in a house where I feel like I'm no one, where the one thing that could have made me happy, isn't even here anymore and there is nothing I can do about that. ::sighs::
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