I have returned.....
For those who's noticed I've been gone for some time, I'm back. I really don't want to be, but I guess I have to. I have no choice. I did have a very good time the past few days, something I haven't felt in a very long time. But now, my good time has left. My good time flew away(literally). Now I'm back home, somewhere I dont want to be....why???????
Today has been a really bad day, since the moment I woke up. I haven't been able to smile. I haven't be able to laugh. I haven't been able to think happy thoughts. I wasn't able to stare at my good time in the eyes, knowing I would break down into tears. I told myself I wouldn't cry, I have no reason to, yet I did. And I shouldn't have. I know that. I don't know what I'm doing. I don't know what is going on..... I'm confused. I hate being confused, I hate being lost, I hate not knowing what part I play. I hate it, I hate it, I hate it!!!!! Can't someone fix it all??!
Today has been a really bad day, since the moment I woke up. I haven't been able to smile. I haven't be able to laugh. I haven't been able to think happy thoughts. I wasn't able to stare at my good time in the eyes, knowing I would break down into tears. I told myself I wouldn't cry, I have no reason to, yet I did. And I shouldn't have. I know that. I don't know what I'm doing. I don't know what is going on..... I'm confused. I hate being confused, I hate being lost, I hate not knowing what part I play. I hate it, I hate it, I hate it!!!!! Can't someone fix it all??!