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[lemerich]

well the past couple of days have been some of the worst ones of my life. lets start with saturday... i came home from work and sat down and watched some tv until my mom came home from the mall. she came home and i asked if i could go into town. she was fine with it at the time. so i went to get changed and george calls me out onto the porch where they were sitting. aparently when i got home george decided to search through my purse which was in my truck and found 2 tinnies a pack of zig-zags and a baggie that still had some weed in it. he asked me about it and i thought of the first thing that came into my mind. "it's not mine. i dunno who's it is." which after thinking about it realized it wasn't the smartest answer cuz the next thing i heard was "who's is it and why is it in your purse?" so it just started to get too far so i fessed up and admitted to it being mine. after some screaming and crying we argued about everything from drugs to my dad. so i went to my room and sat down thinking about what just happened. i got changed and went out into my mom's room where she was and she came up and gave me a big hug and told me she loved me. i then left for town. ...sunday... came home around 11 after being at steff's and my mom wanted to talk to me about money for the insurance that i was paying for on monday. i showed her the money i had (which was all my graduation money) and she wanted to know how when she added up all the money that i had written down and then counted the money i actually had. how was there $300 missing? granted some if it went towards my "habits" but i wasn't gonna tell her that. so i said it went towards gas and food. so after her yelling at me for not saving money for insurance when i told her i was i went to bed. ...monday... george comes home from work and doesn't say 2 words to me. we leave pick up my car and when me and my mom come home george decides to tell us that he found 3 roaches in my truck that weren't there before. now in order for there to be 3 smoked joints in my truck someone would've had to smoked them. considering since this whole thing started i smoked 2 bowls out of a tinny at a friends' house. so i seriously dunno how he found those. so i got bitched at for that. so i came online to find that nobody was on to talk to so went and watched some tv. finally i came back online and there was a invitation for a chatroom. me, shana, michelle, and stephen. he apologized for everything last night. and we're fine now (i think). did a lot of talking and tried to figure out what happened between us. but it's in the past now and doesn't matter anymore so i'm fine w/ just being friends.

lots of love

come visit me at work tonight. i work at 4