Real Life Dramas.
Woah, an RL update? Is this.... is this a blog post??? gasp!
Even I'm stunned but hey, blogging is like therapy. And since I'm actually too chicken to see a therapist or psychologist or counsellor LJ is the next best thing.
So, what happening with me?
University is slowly torturing me to death. I told myself I'd be good this year, get my assignments done nice and early and be social and well... hasn't happened. To my credit, the Uni system is shit. Nearly everything's done electronically with little instructions. It appears we're meant to magically know what to do and since they told us at the beggining of the year that everything we needed to know was in the learning guide, it seems kinda pointless to ask questions when the answers going to be "check the learning guide". WELL IT ISN'T IN THE FUCKING LEARNING GUIDE. It'd also be nice if you could remind us, the week before, that I have an essay due in seven days. Just courtesy to make sure that I hand it in, rather than staying silent and letting me find out the day before (It'd also help if you grouped the due dates of assignments together in the fecken guide, rather than space them out).
Uni rant over. Sometimes I think I should never have left the teaching course. I miss my friends from last year so much, things just aren't the same.
On another note, I'm pretty sure I'm depressed. Like, clinically. But since I find it really hard to talk to people it's difficult for me to get this confirmed. I'm terrified of telling my parents what I think. But lately my mood has been heading downwards again, and I don't want to land at rock bottom. I've been there before, and evidently survived, but I'm scared that if I let it go too far I might actually not bounce back up. I've started taking Cipramil. Not a lot, particularly since they aren't actually mine. They were my mother's from a few years ago but she stopped taking them after only a week and a bit because she felt odd, like she was more agressive. They didn't really work for her. So I've got almost a whole packet in the cupboard, and they're nowhere near their expiry date and so the past couple of days I've been taking them. I don't know if it's been working, because I'm not all that better, but I'm certainly no worse.
On a more exciting, thoroughly better note, I got word that channel ten has confirmed Supernatural is returning to air on May the 4th. yayz! here in Oz we've been severly deprived (it stopped airing two weeks before the US hiatus) having only seen up to 4.08- Wishful thinking. Mind you, this hasn't stopped me from downloading them off the net when they did come out, and so am completely up to date... but still, there have been concerns among the forums that Ten may have scrapped it and not told us. We were gettin a little angsty.
So I have this week off. I'm going to use it to catch up on psych tests, complusory to submit the final report, and writing. With luck, I may just complete one of my projects.
-Eff
Even I'm stunned but hey, blogging is like therapy. And since I'm actually too chicken to see a therapist or psychologist or counsellor LJ is the next best thing.
So, what happening with me?
University is slowly torturing me to death. I told myself I'd be good this year, get my assignments done nice and early and be social and well... hasn't happened. To my credit, the Uni system is shit. Nearly everything's done electronically with little instructions. It appears we're meant to magically know what to do and since they told us at the beggining of the year that everything we needed to know was in the learning guide, it seems kinda pointless to ask questions when the answers going to be "check the learning guide". WELL IT ISN'T IN THE FUCKING LEARNING GUIDE. It'd also be nice if you could remind us, the week before, that I have an essay due in seven days. Just courtesy to make sure that I hand it in, rather than staying silent and letting me find out the day before (It'd also help if you grouped the due dates of assignments together in the fecken guide, rather than space them out).
Uni rant over. Sometimes I think I should never have left the teaching course. I miss my friends from last year so much, things just aren't the same.
On another note, I'm pretty sure I'm depressed. Like, clinically. But since I find it really hard to talk to people it's difficult for me to get this confirmed. I'm terrified of telling my parents what I think. But lately my mood has been heading downwards again, and I don't want to land at rock bottom. I've been there before, and evidently survived, but I'm scared that if I let it go too far I might actually not bounce back up. I've started taking Cipramil. Not a lot, particularly since they aren't actually mine. They were my mother's from a few years ago but she stopped taking them after only a week and a bit because she felt odd, like she was more agressive. They didn't really work for her. So I've got almost a whole packet in the cupboard, and they're nowhere near their expiry date and so the past couple of days I've been taking them. I don't know if it's been working, because I'm not all that better, but I'm certainly no worse.
On a more exciting, thoroughly better note, I got word that channel ten has confirmed Supernatural is returning to air on May the 4th. yayz! here in Oz we've been severly deprived (it stopped airing two weeks before the US hiatus) having only seen up to 4.08- Wishful thinking. Mind you, this hasn't stopped me from downloading them off the net when they did come out, and so am completely up to date... but still, there have been concerns among the forums that Ten may have scrapped it and not told us. We were gettin a little angsty.
So I have this week off. I'm going to use it to catch up on psych tests, complusory to submit the final report, and writing. With luck, I may just complete one of my projects.
-Eff