not for a while, at least.
I'm not feeling 100% tonight. Yeuck. I don't like it. So before I head to bed, I'll write about the conversation that my Mom and I had tonight.
In case you weren't at 3rd ward today, I'll shortly explain. I conducted the 4 hymns, sang in the choir, did a violin solo, and helped with some other small things during Sacrament. All in all, I did a lot.
Anyways, as mom and I were preparing dinner tonight, she asked if anybody commented on my playing today. I said that they had, because I did get a few compliments on how well I played today.
But lately I've been thinking. I guess it's kinda the same idea of what Mom had last year and the Cantata. I share my talents a lot. Especially violin. And I think people are getting sick of it. Or used to it. Or bored with it. Or whatever. They aren't enjoying it anymore. So I've made the decision not to play anymore. I mean, I'll still play whenever I can, because I absolutely love to play, but I just get that feeling that people don't care any more. Other than one person today, I only got compliments from people visiting our ward today.
It makes me sad. I know I have talent. And I love to play and perform. But I'm getting that hunch that people just don't care anymore. They don't want to hear me play *yet again*. ~sigh~. Oh well.
I think what really topped it off was yesterday, as I talked with a close friend, and told her I was going to play in church today...and I was all excited and stuff, and she pretty much just had the attitude of "whippdee doo. ...I've heard you a million times already. I know you can play."
So yeah. We'll see. I guess my love for music isn't the same for everybody. Can't reach level 4 or something.
I don't know what will happen. I am just not going to play for a while. People don't appreciate it as much.
Love you all. Good night.
In case you weren't at 3rd ward today, I'll shortly explain. I conducted the 4 hymns, sang in the choir, did a violin solo, and helped with some other small things during Sacrament. All in all, I did a lot.
Anyways, as mom and I were preparing dinner tonight, she asked if anybody commented on my playing today. I said that they had, because I did get a few compliments on how well I played today.
But lately I've been thinking. I guess it's kinda the same idea of what Mom had last year and the Cantata. I share my talents a lot. Especially violin. And I think people are getting sick of it. Or used to it. Or bored with it. Or whatever. They aren't enjoying it anymore. So I've made the decision not to play anymore. I mean, I'll still play whenever I can, because I absolutely love to play, but I just get that feeling that people don't care any more. Other than one person today, I only got compliments from people visiting our ward today.
It makes me sad. I know I have talent. And I love to play and perform. But I'm getting that hunch that people just don't care anymore. They don't want to hear me play *yet again*. ~sigh~. Oh well.
I think what really topped it off was yesterday, as I talked with a close friend, and told her I was going to play in church today...and I was all excited and stuff, and she pretty much just had the attitude of "whippdee doo. ...I've heard you a million times already. I know you can play."
So yeah. We'll see. I guess my love for music isn't the same for everybody. Can't reach level 4 or something.
I don't know what will happen. I am just not going to play for a while. People don't appreciate it as much.
Love you all. Good night.