Unflexible
Spring is usually a time of greenwashing.
Yesterday the world was whitewashed, then gray.
When I am stressed, I need everything to be just so and I need to escape to step out of that mentality. Usually I retreat to worlds of fantasy bound by paper where I don't have to think about this world. Step into a story that is not my own, become the hero, the adventurer, the wise-woman. The stress lowers my ability to cope with change and it has begun to crossover into my dreams. I dreamed that we had merged households with some friends and they made some changes to the garden plan. Their design was amazing and would produce much more than our original garden plan, but I got very agitated over the unexpected alterations. It was very disconcerting. It is almost as though I have a limited amount of tolerance or flexibility and I spend all of it at work and am unable to save any for my personal life. I am very lucky that my sweetie is understanding, willing to wait through the stress and provide help at home to minimize the stress here. Life juggling is hard. I don't know how some do it so easily!
On the upside, the live mice are very cute.
Yesterday the world was whitewashed, then gray.
When I am stressed, I need everything to be just so and I need to escape to step out of that mentality. Usually I retreat to worlds of fantasy bound by paper where I don't have to think about this world. Step into a story that is not my own, become the hero, the adventurer, the wise-woman. The stress lowers my ability to cope with change and it has begun to crossover into my dreams. I dreamed that we had merged households with some friends and they made some changes to the garden plan. Their design was amazing and would produce much more than our original garden plan, but I got very agitated over the unexpected alterations. It was very disconcerting. It is almost as though I have a limited amount of tolerance or flexibility and I spend all of it at work and am unable to save any for my personal life. I am very lucky that my sweetie is understanding, willing to wait through the stress and provide help at home to minimize the stress here. Life juggling is hard. I don't know how some do it so easily!
On the upside, the live mice are very cute.