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Ah, summer.
Work and school are going well; I couldn't've made a better move than to switch from supervising to frameshop. Within my first two weeks, I had customers complimenting my work and asking for business cards. I was flattered, and all the alone time in the back really helps my patience when I must help customers on the floor.
School, I'm finally understanding (sort of) statistics and probability, thanks to this younger, more straightforward guy who's teaching it. He teaches with the intuitive approach rather than the technical, which I appreciate, since my greatest problem lies in WHY statistics and probability are figured the way they are rather than the rote following of the equations.
I moved into Haley's house for the rest of our senior year (she's a coworker), including this summer, and I couldn't be happier. Adryan and I have, after long last, blown up into a series of arguments and fights, often with long periods of not speaking to each other in between. Whoever's right and whoever's wrong doesn't really matter. I just want our mutual friendships to stay intact.
Love is strange. I'm happy not in it. And actually, I'm coming to redefine it entirely. Cause there are two loves. The love that's wild and explicit, and the love that's quiet and understood, and while so far, my two greatest loves have been of the first kind, I'm beginning to understand that I'm happier with the second. When I voice my undying affection for my partners, it leaves me feeling like I must live up to that standard of emotion ALL THE TIME, which is not only impossible but downright annoying. I want to maintain my own life and my own identity, and I don't want to make my life ever about only one person. So I've decided I'm not cut out for that type of romance, and I must learn how to maintain my identity while falling in love the other way. I must learn to be quiet.
If I get another chance on this earth, I'd want to come back as a tree. One with a wide, swirling trunk, and strong branches that housed littler branches with lots of leaves for a huge expanse of shade under me. And I'd want to grow in a school playground so that kids for generations could create stories around me and I could be part of their imaginations during play time.
So I've picked up Cannery Row, and I was disappointed to see that it's basically just an extension of East of Eden.
I'll be beginning my preprofessional work with Santa Barbara High School starting October 1st, and I'm excited to actually be IN a school, teaching, helping, seeing how it goes. I've registered to take the CBEST, and I'm scheduled to take it in August, one month before my birthday. My future starts here. The time to do all those things I said I'd do "when I grow up" is now.
I saw An Inconvenient Truth, and as if I didn't already think the world was ending, it convinced me further that this next year, it is my goal to become environmentally friendly and encourage everyone I know to do the same. By the way, if you're still reading this and if you haven't already, GO SEE THIS MOVIE! Within the next 50 years, if we don't cut our carbon emissions, virtually all of Manhattan will be underwater, and the Central Valley of California will be beachside property. We will continue to make more severe the already-increasingly-volatile weather-related catastrophes, and we will wipe out all sorts of existing species. THIS MUST STOP WITH OUR GENERATION:
-see the movie
-walk or ride your bike or take public transportation or trade in your car for a more energy-efficient one
-turn off unused electronics and reduce energy usage
-recycle
-plant trees =)
So I think my newest world-related big idea is that when I'm teaching, I'd like to, every summer, be involved in something similar to the the work of the Peace Corps. I doubt they, specifically, have annual summer programs, but I want to get out of my country every year and help out someone else's country. It'll keep my ego down and broaden my perspective.
I've gotta get healthy again. Eat a balanced diet of fruits and vegetables (among other things), wear sunscreen, swim in the ocean while it's nearby, learn to surf, get in touch with my spirituality again.
I've determined that the closest description of my faith is something similar to the idea expressed in the cartoon movie Atlantis.
Eh. Time to get to the gym. Later.
Work and school are going well; I couldn't've made a better move than to switch from supervising to frameshop. Within my first two weeks, I had customers complimenting my work and asking for business cards. I was flattered, and all the alone time in the back really helps my patience when I must help customers on the floor.
School, I'm finally understanding (sort of) statistics and probability, thanks to this younger, more straightforward guy who's teaching it. He teaches with the intuitive approach rather than the technical, which I appreciate, since my greatest problem lies in WHY statistics and probability are figured the way they are rather than the rote following of the equations.
I moved into Haley's house for the rest of our senior year (she's a coworker), including this summer, and I couldn't be happier. Adryan and I have, after long last, blown up into a series of arguments and fights, often with long periods of not speaking to each other in between. Whoever's right and whoever's wrong doesn't really matter. I just want our mutual friendships to stay intact.
Love is strange. I'm happy not in it. And actually, I'm coming to redefine it entirely. Cause there are two loves. The love that's wild and explicit, and the love that's quiet and understood, and while so far, my two greatest loves have been of the first kind, I'm beginning to understand that I'm happier with the second. When I voice my undying affection for my partners, it leaves me feeling like I must live up to that standard of emotion ALL THE TIME, which is not only impossible but downright annoying. I want to maintain my own life and my own identity, and I don't want to make my life ever about only one person. So I've decided I'm not cut out for that type of romance, and I must learn how to maintain my identity while falling in love the other way. I must learn to be quiet.
If I get another chance on this earth, I'd want to come back as a tree. One with a wide, swirling trunk, and strong branches that housed littler branches with lots of leaves for a huge expanse of shade under me. And I'd want to grow in a school playground so that kids for generations could create stories around me and I could be part of their imaginations during play time.
So I've picked up Cannery Row, and I was disappointed to see that it's basically just an extension of East of Eden.
I'll be beginning my preprofessional work with Santa Barbara High School starting October 1st, and I'm excited to actually be IN a school, teaching, helping, seeing how it goes. I've registered to take the CBEST, and I'm scheduled to take it in August, one month before my birthday. My future starts here. The time to do all those things I said I'd do "when I grow up" is now.
I saw An Inconvenient Truth, and as if I didn't already think the world was ending, it convinced me further that this next year, it is my goal to become environmentally friendly and encourage everyone I know to do the same. By the way, if you're still reading this and if you haven't already, GO SEE THIS MOVIE! Within the next 50 years, if we don't cut our carbon emissions, virtually all of Manhattan will be underwater, and the Central Valley of California will be beachside property. We will continue to make more severe the already-increasingly-volatile weather-related catastrophes, and we will wipe out all sorts of existing species. THIS MUST STOP WITH OUR GENERATION:
-see the movie
-walk or ride your bike or take public transportation or trade in your car for a more energy-efficient one
-turn off unused electronics and reduce energy usage
-recycle
-plant trees =)
So I think my newest world-related big idea is that when I'm teaching, I'd like to, every summer, be involved in something similar to the the work of the Peace Corps. I doubt they, specifically, have annual summer programs, but I want to get out of my country every year and help out someone else's country. It'll keep my ego down and broaden my perspective.
I've gotta get healthy again. Eat a balanced diet of fruits and vegetables (among other things), wear sunscreen, swim in the ocean while it's nearby, learn to surf, get in touch with my spirituality again.
I've determined that the closest description of my faith is something similar to the idea expressed in the cartoon movie Atlantis.
Eh. Time to get to the gym. Later.