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it`s done, over, the fairy tale that i never got to tell any of you about has finally passesd me by. It waS great while it lasted, he was amazing and i think i could hvae fallen in love with him very easily. And then the distance began and i had to have known it was going to happen. But why he led me on for so long i have no clue. I asked him if it was because he wasn`t attracted to me, but he said he just wasn`t emotionally in it. He loved the time we spent and hanging out with me, i know he feels bad. And he should, to have let it go this far and let me get this deep without telling me he had no emotions in return, it hurts. alot. he was the greatest thing to me, i would have done practically anything for him. he never told me i waas pretty or complimented me in anyway but i just figured he wasn`t the type to do that kind of stuff. and i just can`t figure it out, i don`t know if i ever will. WHY!? why does this type of thing always happen to me? right now it was what i needed, i`ve been so depressed latley and needed someone there, someone i could talk to and someone to hold me and tell me everything was ok. right now i need a friend but those are nowhere to be found either. so here i sit at livejournal bawling my eyes out over a guy who i thought would be my world when he never even told me i was pretty. i`m pathetic.