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I want to be glenda! i want to float around in my fucking pink bubble and think that everythings funny and just be laid back and have that crazy wand that could fix everything!
Between what was said last night in josh`s drunken belligerentness and what heidi said today i don`t know. "I feel that fear of uncertainty stinging clear.." Thats exactly whats happening, now these people aren`t people i would often take advice form b/c shit does get blown out of proportion with them usually. And i wnat to believe that its just me being dumb, i want to sit back and let it happen, whatevers gonna happen and not really care. I want to be glenda god damnit! But that suspicion creeps up on me and starts to choke, the calm i had recedes and i`m left with panic. Jealousy is a very evil emotion, and i can`t afford to have it in my pink fucking bubble! Honesty is always best but if someones never going to be honest with me i can`t afford to have them in my pink bubble either...
I hope you stay in my pink bubble.
Between what was said last night in josh`s drunken belligerentness and what heidi said today i don`t know. "I feel that fear of uncertainty stinging clear.." Thats exactly whats happening, now these people aren`t people i would often take advice form b/c shit does get blown out of proportion with them usually. And i wnat to believe that its just me being dumb, i want to sit back and let it happen, whatevers gonna happen and not really care. I want to be glenda god damnit! But that suspicion creeps up on me and starts to choke, the calm i had recedes and i`m left with panic. Jealousy is a very evil emotion, and i can`t afford to have it in my pink fucking bubble! Honesty is always best but if someones never going to be honest with me i can`t afford to have them in my pink bubble either...
I hope you stay in my pink bubble.