Life is...
different.
Julie's getting married in June, and I'm the maid of honor...holla. Anyway, been busy trying to get shit together...but it doesn't seem to work. :(
Sarah called today and Mike's in the hospital...he's really sick...please pray for him... don't really believe in prayer...but it can't hurt. I feel so bad, I'm gonna go spend some time with her this week.
Work...is work. Nothing interesting...still geting crappy hours...
I think Harvey feels as I do about life...just kinda lost...
I keep thinking about how I'm gonna end up alone...all my friends are getting married, or engaged...and sadly I'm the one who is not even close to having that kind of relationship with anyone. Theres so many things in life i want...I wanna be close...but he doesn't let me...
Don called me the other night...he was drunk...
Once he was sober we talked for a long time...it's so hard to watch someone you love give up on life as he has...I wanna help him but theres nothing I can do or say to make him feel better...I've been there...I still teeter there...
But I try and stay positive...it's so hard to...
I'm still waiting on my new job...I struggle to pay off my bills :( It's a great cycle...
Frank is well...so much better than before...he seems a lot happier. I feel bad though...I wish I had more money to do stuff...adn I was older...I hate being under 21 because it limits what I can do.
I continue to drown myself in SWG...anything to leep my mind from sinking...
"Feeling all alone in my little head again
Feels so good just to sit and take it in
Back home in my big bed again
You're gone and I'm spent
But wherever you are
I want to be
I can't stop thinking about what you did to me"~Stroke9
Julie's getting married in June, and I'm the maid of honor...holla. Anyway, been busy trying to get shit together...but it doesn't seem to work. :(
Sarah called today and Mike's in the hospital...he's really sick...please pray for him... don't really believe in prayer...but it can't hurt. I feel so bad, I'm gonna go spend some time with her this week.
Work...is work. Nothing interesting...still geting crappy hours...
I think Harvey feels as I do about life...just kinda lost...
I keep thinking about how I'm gonna end up alone...all my friends are getting married, or engaged...and sadly I'm the one who is not even close to having that kind of relationship with anyone. Theres so many things in life i want...I wanna be close...but he doesn't let me...
Don called me the other night...he was drunk...
Once he was sober we talked for a long time...it's so hard to watch someone you love give up on life as he has...I wanna help him but theres nothing I can do or say to make him feel better...I've been there...I still teeter there...
But I try and stay positive...it's so hard to...
I'm still waiting on my new job...I struggle to pay off my bills :( It's a great cycle...
Frank is well...so much better than before...he seems a lot happier. I feel bad though...I wish I had more money to do stuff...adn I was older...I hate being under 21 because it limits what I can do.
I continue to drown myself in SWG...anything to leep my mind from sinking...
"Feeling all alone in my little head again
Feels so good just to sit and take it in
Back home in my big bed again
You're gone and I'm spent
But wherever you are
I want to be
I can't stop thinking about what you did to me"~Stroke9