Another Day Gone By...

[leleeatworld]

Sitting in my room...it's loud in here and I'm trying to talk to like five people and write in here. Nelson got a journal...hi Nelson! Harvey is so sexy...lol. Ah quiet for a few mins...I'm struggling inside...guess I never really wrote that idea out. I always seem to be struggling with life...the physical and emotional. i feel cut off, alone...sad. Christmas time I had a lotta friends...most seemed to drop off lately for bigger and better things. But I guess thats the way life is...people come and go, and come back and go again. It's hard to keep in touch and hang out with everyone. Talking to Joe about all thats happened...we both have a lotta probs with the past. It's nice to have someone like Joe that was there through it all...::sigh::. I have all these dreams...and they seem to fade fast anymore...which makes u think that all your dreams before were just stupid. Why dream if it never comes true or if the odds are stacked against you? God came up a lot today...religion class and with Nelson. The fat communist got us all in a discussion about why we don't go to church when u get to college. Like 2 people outta 25 actually go every week. Ha...don't blame them. She asked everyone but me why they don't go anymore...I wonder why not me? Do I not have an opinion? Or does she just know I'll make her look bad by saying all the wrong things? Maybe I don't have an opinion about anything? Like if I hate my life why don't I fix it...I simply have no opinion? I kinda lost my outlet...my poor blue journal sits forgotten in my bag...who knows what it says. I have a job interview...I don't even want a job...I miss Frank...he was online last night...he makes me think too much. Sadly I'll always have a connection and remember him...I don't wanna think about him...I want him to go away, disappear from the earth and my mind...I don't want him to die or anything...I just wish he never came into my life.
It's to dying in another's arms and why I had to try it...I'm not your star...did you know I miss you? It's not hard to dream you'll always be my Konstatine...