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Sometimes you just need something more than anything. The want is there.. always gnawing at the fringes of your mind. Something I will always end up giving away and never getting anything back. Just the way my world is.
The girl I was seeing completely destroyed my confidence in myself. Saying one thing.. then doing a complete 180 and saying something else. Why cant I find someone who isnt going to use me to bring themselves out of whatever funk it is they are in. A stepping stone. I dont want to be that. I hate being that... But being who I am.. I guess thats all I can really have. Listening.. being there.. being comforting.. soothing.. loyal and loving. Nice guys just dont win.
Its nice knowing someone wants to talk to me all the time.. but you just really wanna have that something with someone. The Click. Im physically exhausted. Its not helping my mentality.
I miss Nikki.........
The girl I was seeing completely destroyed my confidence in myself. Saying one thing.. then doing a complete 180 and saying something else. Why cant I find someone who isnt going to use me to bring themselves out of whatever funk it is they are in. A stepping stone. I dont want to be that. I hate being that... But being who I am.. I guess thats all I can really have. Listening.. being there.. being comforting.. soothing.. loyal and loving. Nice guys just dont win.
Its nice knowing someone wants to talk to me all the time.. but you just really wanna have that something with someone. The Click. Im physically exhausted. Its not helping my mentality.
I miss Nikki.........