I think I'm gonna be sick
Something is happening, Im not really sure what it is, but God has decided to show me some truth.
In the past three days, mysteries, unanswered questions, and most importantly, truth, has come out about people around me. ONe inparticular that I might have held a bit too high in regards, and maybe a bit too close to my heart.
Right now Im a little sick. All of this I had no idea. I bet if some of you knew what I was talking about, well that doesnt matter. Look I am not a bad person, I dont steal, lie, cheat, and I try really hard not to talk about people, becasue I wouldn't want people to be that way about me. I think for a long time, my association with a friend, has really hurt me in the long run. I found out about 3 completely seperate incidents involving this one particular person, from three completely different sources. If they are telling the truth, then the wool was pulled over my eyes. Jake, Im sorry about your coat. I really didnt have one clue, but it all makes sense now. Clara, Im sorry she made that remark in the same breath as her introduction, I told you I was sorry, and now I know it made it awkward, I am embarrassed. And to Ms. Kitty, Im sorry you heard what she said. Whatever it was it wasnt nice and I do not share the same sentiments.
I want everyone to know that I came to the knoxgothic community out of a need to reconnect with those I did know, and those who I had not yet met. All that glitters is not gold.Those pretty people arent so pretty anymore.
I have found myself more and more withdrawn from social interaction. I think I really needed to take everything in, along with things going on in my personal life. I am realizing that how I see people is face value, until I get to know them. I know things about this community that I dont want to beleive, I hope they arent true. Some of you I know are good people. But I think I need to take a step back until all the facts and stories are in.
I cant beleive I had no idea all this was happening.
In other news I still weigh 216, but I cant keep my pants on....they are too big.
And some little shit at work told people he liked me. I was so flattered I went to tell Kim, only to find out he told people he thought she was cute too. Well it was nice for the moment.
There is a tape, sitting next to my TV, of a fetish show I did, in atlanta for Secret Room. Its in there, staring at me like Pandora's box. I am scared to death to watch it. I dont rememeber and I am not sure I want to.
In the past three days, mysteries, unanswered questions, and most importantly, truth, has come out about people around me. ONe inparticular that I might have held a bit too high in regards, and maybe a bit too close to my heart.
Right now Im a little sick. All of this I had no idea. I bet if some of you knew what I was talking about, well that doesnt matter. Look I am not a bad person, I dont steal, lie, cheat, and I try really hard not to talk about people, becasue I wouldn't want people to be that way about me. I think for a long time, my association with a friend, has really hurt me in the long run. I found out about 3 completely seperate incidents involving this one particular person, from three completely different sources. If they are telling the truth, then the wool was pulled over my eyes. Jake, Im sorry about your coat. I really didnt have one clue, but it all makes sense now. Clara, Im sorry she made that remark in the same breath as her introduction, I told you I was sorry, and now I know it made it awkward, I am embarrassed. And to Ms. Kitty, Im sorry you heard what she said. Whatever it was it wasnt nice and I do not share the same sentiments.
I want everyone to know that I came to the knoxgothic community out of a need to reconnect with those I did know, and those who I had not yet met. All that glitters is not gold.Those pretty people arent so pretty anymore.
I have found myself more and more withdrawn from social interaction. I think I really needed to take everything in, along with things going on in my personal life. I am realizing that how I see people is face value, until I get to know them. I know things about this community that I dont want to beleive, I hope they arent true. Some of you I know are good people. But I think I need to take a step back until all the facts and stories are in.
I cant beleive I had no idea all this was happening.
In other news I still weigh 216, but I cant keep my pants on....they are too big.
And some little shit at work told people he liked me. I was so flattered I went to tell Kim, only to find out he told people he thought she was cute too. Well it was nice for the moment.
There is a tape, sitting next to my TV, of a fetish show I did, in atlanta for Secret Room. Its in there, staring at me like Pandora's box. I am scared to death to watch it. I dont rememeber and I am not sure I want to.