even if the gods are crazy - even if the stars are blind

[leisureanimal]

so, I took this job to overcome my fear of medicine
because I was tired of cowering in the gent's shoulder
every time Janice Dickinson was shown getting botox
and worrying that my only option was faith healing
so now I regularly find myself counting syringes and IUDs
watching blood draws and oral swab HIV tests
and it gets easier every day
why didn't I try this sooner?
not to say I don't hyperventilate during TB tests
or cower in the gent's shoulder from time to time
but it's a different kind of cowering
and oh, the gent -
I cower because I am so in love with him
and completely at his mercy sometimes
find myself getting territorial and elated all at once
find myself sex-drunk in the mid-afternoon
driving in my dirty little car back to my house
and oh, my house -
I gasp everytime I walk in the front door
because it is cozy and beautiful
with a sweet dog in the big backyard
I hang wind chimes and a disco ball from the tall oak tree
and swoon lying in my sage-green bedroom
because I count my blessings and can't believe
fortune so good a thousand cookies
couldn't have predicted it