SoBe rules.
I spent most of the day struggling to stay up because I couldn't sleep all night and by the time I got tired (around late noon) it was too late to sleep. Not that I care, I just don't wanna miss the day again. Me and Shoana got bored and did some 60's hair-do's, i think they're from the 60's...she had her hair way up on top of her head kind of to the side it looked like a palm tree and i had 2 big pigtails on top of my head and we took pictures, i felt like such a dork but we were SO fucking bored. Then we decided to go for a walk, and we were by this abandoned Publix plaza thing and we saw this tower looking thing and behind it there was a car, it was completely totalled. Anyone who was in it while it crashed has to be dead. So my curious ass starts snooping through the car and I took the keys for no apparent reason, and the keychain said #1 Grandma, that made me feel so bad. Then Tyler finally called and tells me he's gonna take his dads car to my house, I was kind of mad because he was supposed to come over hours earlier but he took a bunch of oxy contins and passed out.
So while he's sleeping, Chayenne was at the house for some reason (hanging out with his sister probably) and she walks into his room and kisses him on the cheek and wakes him up. I wanna...shoot her...he acts as if she's a piece of shit but I know he still loves her. He doesn't deny it when I bring it up anyway.
So he came over all pilled out, and the oxy contins he promised me were the ones he took. He said he's gonna get me some tomorrow but I could care less...yeah. He was hitting on Shoana again...I don't know if he's trying to make me jelous or not but she said he does it when I'm not around too. He didn't do anything in particular, just remarks like "nice ass" just cause it was THERE doesn't mean it's alright to say shit like that. And just...other stuff that I can't remember right now. I don't care if he thinks other girls are hot, honestly, I don't, but the fact that he hits on them and it happens to be my bestfriend is like eating my up inside. I can not bear the fact he might have feelings for another girl, even though I know he still does for Chayenne but he doesn't show it with her. I don't know if he has feelings for Shoana or not but it still bugs the hell out of me.
And just as I predicted we spent our time together arguing and just laying there...that's all we ever do when he comes over. It's Lay together Fuck Argue Get Pissed Make Up and Lay. And we rarely have sex so it's more like just laying there then arguing and the pattern continues. Cuddling with him is great and all but we don't do anything else when he comes over. Unless he has pot or liqour or pills. Then we do that, and then lay. He keeps trying to persue a more serious relationship but this is going n o w h e r e. I don't wanna break up with him because I really care about him and wanna be with him but I don't know where this is going and if we keep fighting we're not gonna last long at all. I know if we break up we'll just keep getting back together like we did back when we used to date when I was running from cops for like forever but I don't want to waste my time on something thats...something thats just a waste of time. But-I am planning on letting him taste his own medicine. This bitch is gonna be so jelous he's gonna be hissing and growling for days.