The questions I often ask myself
The times I get someone doing full belly laughs or spit-takes or rolling on the floor (literally) with laughter:
1. Why aren't I doing this?
...like, for a living. Through stories I write, or scenes I act out or give voice to, comics I draw, or scripts I craft. I know I'm not everyone's cup of tea, but those who are like-minded find a kindred spirit in me the way I find a kindred spirit in others who are likewise minded.
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The times my back aches at work and they're asking me to come early (again) when I know for a fact it doesn't take that long to do the work and could safely start an hour or two later while still getting done early enough in the day to be considered one of the "lucky ones."
2. Why am I still here?
...I could be working somewhere else. ANYWHERE ELSE. I could be getting my master's degree in Library Sciences or Creative Writing. I could be doing something that gets me closer to where I actually want to be.
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Plenty of other boring, commonplace life questions run through my head when I wonder where I am and where I'm going and why I'm not doing anything. These questions are good because it means I haven't given up. I still expect "something else" out of myself. I'm trying to learn better habits. Trying to learn to be more balanced. Trying to decide which dreams I can afford to strive for and which just don't make sense financially.
I feel I am one crucial step away from a big plunge in one direction or another. How hard am I willing to work for it?
1. Why aren't I doing this?
...like, for a living. Through stories I write, or scenes I act out or give voice to, comics I draw, or scripts I craft. I know I'm not everyone's cup of tea, but those who are like-minded find a kindred spirit in me the way I find a kindred spirit in others who are likewise minded.
--
The times my back aches at work and they're asking me to come early (again) when I know for a fact it doesn't take that long to do the work and could safely start an hour or two later while still getting done early enough in the day to be considered one of the "lucky ones."
2. Why am I still here?
...I could be working somewhere else. ANYWHERE ELSE. I could be getting my master's degree in Library Sciences or Creative Writing. I could be doing something that gets me closer to where I actually want to be.
--
Plenty of other boring, commonplace life questions run through my head when I wonder where I am and where I'm going and why I'm not doing anything. These questions are good because it means I haven't given up. I still expect "something else" out of myself. I'm trying to learn better habits. Trying to learn to be more balanced. Trying to decide which dreams I can afford to strive for and which just don't make sense financially.
I feel I am one crucial step away from a big plunge in one direction or another. How hard am I willing to work for it?