GGRRRR!!!!!!
I HATE FUCKING EXAMS!!!! FUCK THEM!!!!!!!!!!!!! just had (another) stupid fight with my mom over these fucking exams. i hate them!!! all this crap about how if i actualy study then there's not reason why i shouldn't get all a's. she always says all this crap about 'dont worry, no matter what u get, i'll be proud as long as you've tried your hardest' but its such bullshit cause if i do badly i get yelled and compared to my sister (who is the perfect daughter) and she says that i obviously didn't try my best. Im so sick of it, of tryin my best and failing, of never being good enough. fuck it. just, fuck it all. fuck!!!!
ergh...just ignore me, i am just being selfish and self pitying. i hate that. damnit, what the hell is wrong with me?! the death toll for the asia tsunami is up to like, 81,000 and here i am feeling sorry for myself... ergh, i make me sick..
Man, its so ard to believe that horrible things like that can happen... one of my really close friends lives in thailand, - i was SO worried about her! but shes ok, but she doesn't know if the rest of her family and friends are... she mus be going through some horrible shit right now... i wish i could do something to help all those poor ppl..earlier they were showing pictures of all the missing children.. its so sickening... i hate it. im so grateful that i've never had to deal with anything like that..
sorry to enter such a depressing and angry entry... i gotta write what i feel.
bai xxx
ergh...just ignore me, i am just being selfish and self pitying. i hate that. damnit, what the hell is wrong with me?! the death toll for the asia tsunami is up to like, 81,000 and here i am feeling sorry for myself... ergh, i make me sick..
Man, its so ard to believe that horrible things like that can happen... one of my really close friends lives in thailand, - i was SO worried about her! but shes ok, but she doesn't know if the rest of her family and friends are... she mus be going through some horrible shit right now... i wish i could do something to help all those poor ppl..earlier they were showing pictures of all the missing children.. its so sickening... i hate it. im so grateful that i've never had to deal with anything like that..
sorry to enter such a depressing and angry entry... i gotta write what i feel.
bai xxx