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[leilani666]

Started work yesterday. I'll have 7 groups, three of them with more than 30 kids. Grades from kinder to 6. It's going to be hell, but I'm actually looking forward to the challenge.

Not much to say, I've been too busy with that, and nervous as hell to actually do anything important. But I'll be fine, right? I can do it. I mean, that's what I like and

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[travelistaa]

Aww.....kids crying cause they don't want to leave their parents? I think I cried when I was little...then again my mom woul put me on the bus...lol she told me later she followed the bus to school to make sure I made it. :) It's ok if you aren't online, I haven't been on a whole whole lot lately either...stuff just keeps coming up for me to do. I'm hoping next week wont be so damn jam packed. Wheeeeeee!!! I gotta go birthday shopping for you, heehee. I dunno what happened to the other thing, I never got anything from you :( Stupid postal service.

When you getting a new phone? I sent you a text the other day but I figured you didn't get it since you were having so many issues. Stuuuuupid. And your ass better be careful!

I know I deserve better and can get better...it's just so hard to let go of familiarity. I don't miss him and the shit he used to pull, I miss the idea of him, I think that's whats holding me back. When we hook up, or hang out, its like...having the best of him, because he's super nice and sweet and blah blah. It makes it hard to realize just how much of a jerk he really is. I can change my number but I've had the same phone number for ten years and I hate to change it. People I don't even remember still have that number, so I hate to change it.

The reason I wanted to go to UNF is because it's really close, it's right here in Jacksonville and I wouldn't have to move. Now I'm going to end up having to move somewhere, which I'm not going to be able to do right now anyway because I can't sell my trailer. I have to sell that thing before I can actually move anywhere...it's the reason I'm here and not in Ireland. If I had sold the trailer in January like I planned, I'd still have the student loan money, and I could have just jetted off to Ireland. It's really frustrating to be tied down like this, knowing I could be somewhere having the experience of a lifetime but a godamn trailer is holding me back. Never own anything other than a car, it's too much work to try to get rid of it.

BLAH. Anyway. That's all I got, lol.