wow...
so there's this thing on here (here being live journal), where you can view random journals. I've been flipping through for the past 20 minutes or so reading journals of people i don't know, and to be honest, it's a little scary. It's amazing how tormented and dysfunctional some people are (or claim to be). Granted some of it could just be for show. Everyone likes to exaggerate online because it gets you attention and sympathy. But even so, i was creeped out. So many people were talking about death and self mutilation. It was either that, or the other extreme. Light and obnoxiously girly. They were dark and gothic or filled with pink font and exclamation marks and comments about britney spears and how hot the kid in their 5th period was. GOD i hope i wasn't like that in high school. I don't think i was ever one of those really bubbly people that were always smiling and bouncy and had no intillectual thought in their head. At least i hope not. Maybe for about 15 minutes in 8th grade...but it definitely didn't last long. Anyways, where are all the happy mediums in the world?? You can't always hate life or be bubbly...where are all the normal people? maybe they don't have journals...i dunno. And that's not to say these people aren't normal. They're problems could be completely justified, i wouldn't really know cause i have no idea who they are. But in terms of first impressions i was scared. Either by dark black backgrounds with red writing screaming about how much they loved the feel of a blade on their wrist, or it's hello kitty everywhere with horrible misspellings and exclamation marks after every other word. Who knows, maybe i'm being an ass. It would be purely out of boredom. And when i'm bored i tend to just let the words flow as opposed to filtering what i say in order to keep from offending people. So, i guess i apologize if you are offended, but in a way i don't cause it's my honest opinion and i'm entitled to it...so just disregard that whole sentence cause it got me no where.
I need something to do besides sit here and think about how badly i'm going to fail my final tomorrow. I miss everyone. I got used to having them around for the past few days. unfortunately now it's back to reality and the good times are over. I'm having a hard time accepting the fact that this is the only year that things will be this way. So many of us are going our separate ways after May and I'm afraid of not making the most of the time i do have. But i don't really know what more i can do...i mean there's always the obvious but that involves more than just me, plus it's impossible so i guess it's not really an option at all lol. Why don't other people have this problem? I always have to dwell on the negative side of things, why can't i be consumed by the positive stuff? oi..oh well. I have a month off to regroup. I'm going to miss it here. Mostly i'm gonna miss amanda and my rotc boys. Mostly just the fantastic four (scott, matt, austin, and victor). I love hanging out with them so much. Even if i do have to sit there and listen to them talk about hot girls or how they would turn gay for brad pitt lol. They're awesome and i'm gonna miss them. And i'll especially miss the late night drunken discussions with Vice President Harlass lol. Actually i'll miss him the most, but he doesn't need to know that lol. And of course there's no one that compares to my Manda. She's put up with all my shit and managed to keep me entertained lol. gotta love the girl. listen to me! This is what i'm talking about, i sound like college is freakin ending! We're all gonna be back in a damn month! But i can't help it, a month in my house is a long ass time lol. My parents make 24 hours seem like years. plus i know that once i'm in VA for a couple days i'm gonna want to be back in Texas. I bitch but i do love it here. And actually i'm not a huge fan of Galveston itself, it's mostly just the people and the school that come with it that i love (and the beach is an added bonus). Alright, i'm done rambling. I'm gonna go find food and go to bed.
I need something to do besides sit here and think about how badly i'm going to fail my final tomorrow. I miss everyone. I got used to having them around for the past few days. unfortunately now it's back to reality and the good times are over. I'm having a hard time accepting the fact that this is the only year that things will be this way. So many of us are going our separate ways after May and I'm afraid of not making the most of the time i do have. But i don't really know what more i can do...i mean there's always the obvious but that involves more than just me, plus it's impossible so i guess it's not really an option at all lol. Why don't other people have this problem? I always have to dwell on the negative side of things, why can't i be consumed by the positive stuff? oi..oh well. I have a month off to regroup. I'm going to miss it here. Mostly i'm gonna miss amanda and my rotc boys. Mostly just the fantastic four (scott, matt, austin, and victor). I love hanging out with them so much. Even if i do have to sit there and listen to them talk about hot girls or how they would turn gay for brad pitt lol. They're awesome and i'm gonna miss them. And i'll especially miss the late night drunken discussions with Vice President Harlass lol. Actually i'll miss him the most, but he doesn't need to know that lol. And of course there's no one that compares to my Manda. She's put up with all my shit and managed to keep me entertained lol. gotta love the girl. listen to me! This is what i'm talking about, i sound like college is freakin ending! We're all gonna be back in a damn month! But i can't help it, a month in my house is a long ass time lol. My parents make 24 hours seem like years. plus i know that once i'm in VA for a couple days i'm gonna want to be back in Texas. I bitch but i do love it here. And actually i'm not a huge fan of Galveston itself, it's mostly just the people and the school that come with it that i love (and the beach is an added bonus). Alright, i'm done rambling. I'm gonna go find food and go to bed.