I'm falling apart...
it amazes me how life works. i don't understand it at all. one day things can be so great, your optimism is at an all time high, your coasting through school, you're having a great time with your friends, guys are a thing of the past, and you finally just feel satisfied with life. Then about 5 minutes in to that euphoria, your crash your car, find out you're not doing as well in classes as you'd thought, have to cancel a much anticipated trip with your best friend, piss off your roomate, start to miss that "thing of the past", and find yourself alone in your dorm watching the same reruns of laguna beach over and over again with no internet to communicate with and suffering through the daily phone conversation with your parents about grades(again) and recently inflated insurance rates due to your stupidity (currently the most popular topic). i just don't know how life manages to be so incredibly unpredictable. In many ways it seems unfair and i don't know how much more my sanity can handle. My emotions are already going haywire from people screwing with my head (and my heart for that matter) and to take away even the slightest bit of foresight i may have had, makes for an insanely mentally and emotionally challenging life style. Just one of the downsides to being a college student. i chose to live in an environment where i'm surrounded by some of the most confused people in the world. Everyone's trying to figure out where they're going to end up in the future, while at the same time having to get through the present. Very few things are grounded in college, and things are constantly changing, and it's hard to adapt to that. i'm used to things changing physically,moving from state to state and what not, but this is all mental. And it's tough to handle. I don't really know why i'm writing about this, life just took a sudden turn from going well to totally sucking and this is what came from it. oh well..