Sucks
I suck at updating this thing. I'm well aware of that but today something major happenend and I just have to get it off my chest before I try and get some sleep.
Yesterday, me and the Lover where together for 6 months and we just got back from a 3 week vacation in Romania (which I thoroughly enjoyed btw). Then today he unexpectatly shows up at my place...to tell me he is no longer in love with me and we should break things up.
Boy, I didn't see that one coming!
He gave me some BS-talk about how he still loves me (but not like THAT, you know), how he still thinks I'm the most beautiful woman in the world, how he still thinks I'm extremely interesting and nice and sweet and attractive and and and... Doesn't do me any good now, does it? Everthing is there except that little "thing" we can't exactly put a name on but that is so vital for a relationship. That's what he tells me. He says it's for the best anyways, that in time I'll see he made a right decision because he'll never be able to make me happy. Like as if I'd still be with him if he made me unhappy! A bit pretentious if you ask me.
He needs time to think, to reflect on what he wants from life and he reckons I should do the same. We'll see where it leads...he told me. But for now we're totally over and through and not so together anymore. What does he want?? A break-up or a temporary hold? I think I deserve clarity and if he doesn't really know what he wants, he should say so.
But all this doesn't matter, does it? I can get angry and terribly annoyed but all I really want is for him to come back and tell me that he made a mistake and just hold me.
It really, really sucks. For once I was totally happy...
Yesterday, me and the Lover where together for 6 months and we just got back from a 3 week vacation in Romania (which I thoroughly enjoyed btw). Then today he unexpectatly shows up at my place...to tell me he is no longer in love with me and we should break things up.
Boy, I didn't see that one coming!
He gave me some BS-talk about how he still loves me (but not like THAT, you know), how he still thinks I'm the most beautiful woman in the world, how he still thinks I'm extremely interesting and nice and sweet and attractive and and and... Doesn't do me any good now, does it? Everthing is there except that little "thing" we can't exactly put a name on but that is so vital for a relationship. That's what he tells me. He says it's for the best anyways, that in time I'll see he made a right decision because he'll never be able to make me happy. Like as if I'd still be with him if he made me unhappy! A bit pretentious if you ask me.
He needs time to think, to reflect on what he wants from life and he reckons I should do the same. We'll see where it leads...he told me. But for now we're totally over and through and not so together anymore. What does he want?? A break-up or a temporary hold? I think I deserve clarity and if he doesn't really know what he wants, he should say so.
But all this doesn't matter, does it? I can get angry and terribly annoyed but all I really want is for him to come back and tell me that he made a mistake and just hold me.
It really, really sucks. For once I was totally happy...