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It's funny that no matter what happens, nothing clicks. I never understand. I'm really sick of this crap. Sad. Screw you. I did the best I could, I always do my best. But my best is never good enough for you people. Screw you.
On a good note, I ate 2 feet away from the prinicpal clarinetist (Dr. Kelly Johnson) and the 2nd chair clarinetist (Ms. Fourneir - not spelled correctly, I know) of the ASO, Howard Klug, an amazing professor of clarinet at the amazing Inidana University, and David McClune, who makes mouthpieces (yes, makes. every one of them customized by him. Great pieces of work. He was so excited about making mouthpieces too...). I say 2 feet away because this little Chinese place didn't ahve tables big enough to seat 12, so the 4 students got stuck at our own table. Away from the awesomeness. I guess it didn't really matter, I screwed up earlier in the day and couldn't think of anything intelligent to say that might make them remember my name. Even in the car on the way back to Conway, Mr. Klug sitting right there and I couldn't think of anything to say.
At least I was in the presence of talent. People I should look up to. Today was an amazing opportunity. But I'm pissed because it's the first opportunity I've ever had. I'm 19 years old, folks, and have played the clarinet since 5th grade, that's 10 years. In 10 freaking years I have never been to a clarinet convention. Why is that? Almost enough to make me switch to education...kids should have a good chance at doing something they love. Kids should be exposed to all kinds of things so they can decide what is important to them and not just because their parents happen to be band directors or something similar. It shouldn't matter what your parents did. Why can't we all have equal opportunities? I would make a horrible band director. But I think today made me really think about at least private lessons. Maybe I can do something for kids that no one ever did for me. Just some food for thought
On a good note, I ate 2 feet away from the prinicpal clarinetist (Dr. Kelly Johnson) and the 2nd chair clarinetist (Ms. Fourneir - not spelled correctly, I know) of the ASO, Howard Klug, an amazing professor of clarinet at the amazing Inidana University, and David McClune, who makes mouthpieces (yes, makes. every one of them customized by him. Great pieces of work. He was so excited about making mouthpieces too...). I say 2 feet away because this little Chinese place didn't ahve tables big enough to seat 12, so the 4 students got stuck at our own table. Away from the awesomeness. I guess it didn't really matter, I screwed up earlier in the day and couldn't think of anything intelligent to say that might make them remember my name. Even in the car on the way back to Conway, Mr. Klug sitting right there and I couldn't think of anything to say.
At least I was in the presence of talent. People I should look up to. Today was an amazing opportunity. But I'm pissed because it's the first opportunity I've ever had. I'm 19 years old, folks, and have played the clarinet since 5th grade, that's 10 years. In 10 freaking years I have never been to a clarinet convention. Why is that? Almost enough to make me switch to education...kids should have a good chance at doing something they love. Kids should be exposed to all kinds of things so they can decide what is important to them and not just because their parents happen to be band directors or something similar. It shouldn't matter what your parents did. Why can't we all have equal opportunities? I would make a horrible band director. But I think today made me really think about at least private lessons. Maybe I can do something for kids that no one ever did for me. Just some food for thought