astonishing things
(joss whedon wrote an xmen comic series called astonishing x-men. what?! yes, it's true. calm down. ok. but whenever i think about astonishing i think of that. silly)
15 minutes til go time (going from the library internet station to the natural foods market to post Summer school stuff for Montessori, go get groceries for the next two weeks, look at the apt. I'm going to be living in for the summer, pack as much of my stuff as possible so I can move this weekend, and then go get dinner and drinks with friends and family (well, one family, Justin). =}
I can't say how relieved I am that dance recital season is finally over! I have some more Goshen classes still, but none of those misc. rehearsals that eat up my weeks and force me into the distasteful town of Elkhart. (Someday I shall rant about why I dislike Elkhart, but for now, suffice it to say that I grew up there). The recitals went well (both on Saturday, props to Jeff and Tara for helping me accomplish the almost impossible task of quelling excited nervous dancers and em, teacher.) =}
So yeah, the move to Seattle is indefinitely postponed. At least until next year. Jeff said he'd be willing to move with me, but I really think it's worth it to stay and work on developing our relationship for a year at least. Long distance ones are really quite difficult, and we've known each other as friends for quite a while so I don't know. It's like we'll never have bad days again as long as we're around each other. Hm. I feel incredibly comfortable when I'm with him. It's that sense of being really known by someone, yet, despite all your faults, loved for who you are. Not what you do for them, or how you look, or the things you like, but just because you're you and they have chosen to love you.
In the same way that I've been overwhelmed with love in this relationship I feel like I'm getting a better grasp of the love of God. I'm almost finished reading The Lion and the Lamb by Brennan Manning. There are some almost shocking (dare I say astonishing?!) revelations of how passionate and unquenchable God's love for us is, and nothing we can do will stop that. So I'm giving in to His incredible love for me, and His unstoppable love for others on a daily almost moment to moment basis.
Jeff has been browsing through a few discovery channel and BBC clips and sharing them with me since I'm lacking in internet capabilities, and time with which to do such things. He's been sharing quantum physics, string theory, etc as well as outer space saavy, and said something recently that I've been rolling over in my heart a lot. God loves any given person more than He loves the stars, the sun, the galaxies, mountains, trees, or oceans that sometimes bring me to tears with their beauty. Hm. Wow. So, since God is loving me and you that much right now, I hope to live in that assurance and freedom.
I hope my friends are living in the freedom that comes from someone loving you unconditionally. Not because you're cool (because you are) and not because of anything that you can do or haven't done, but because Jesus chooses to.
Sorry if this seems at all preachy. I don't mean it to. I'm just saying that you my loved ones are loved by me and Jesus and I can't edit it to make it less of what I first wrote it to be since I have no time. =}
15 minutes til go time (going from the library internet station to the natural foods market to post Summer school stuff for Montessori, go get groceries for the next two weeks, look at the apt. I'm going to be living in for the summer, pack as much of my stuff as possible so I can move this weekend, and then go get dinner and drinks with friends and family (well, one family, Justin). =}
I can't say how relieved I am that dance recital season is finally over! I have some more Goshen classes still, but none of those misc. rehearsals that eat up my weeks and force me into the distasteful town of Elkhart. (Someday I shall rant about why I dislike Elkhart, but for now, suffice it to say that I grew up there). The recitals went well (both on Saturday, props to Jeff and Tara for helping me accomplish the almost impossible task of quelling excited nervous dancers and em, teacher.) =}
So yeah, the move to Seattle is indefinitely postponed. At least until next year. Jeff said he'd be willing to move with me, but I really think it's worth it to stay and work on developing our relationship for a year at least. Long distance ones are really quite difficult, and we've known each other as friends for quite a while so I don't know. It's like we'll never have bad days again as long as we're around each other. Hm. I feel incredibly comfortable when I'm with him. It's that sense of being really known by someone, yet, despite all your faults, loved for who you are. Not what you do for them, or how you look, or the things you like, but just because you're you and they have chosen to love you.
In the same way that I've been overwhelmed with love in this relationship I feel like I'm getting a better grasp of the love of God. I'm almost finished reading The Lion and the Lamb by Brennan Manning. There are some almost shocking (dare I say astonishing?!) revelations of how passionate and unquenchable God's love for us is, and nothing we can do will stop that. So I'm giving in to His incredible love for me, and His unstoppable love for others on a daily almost moment to moment basis.
Jeff has been browsing through a few discovery channel and BBC clips and sharing them with me since I'm lacking in internet capabilities, and time with which to do such things. He's been sharing quantum physics, string theory, etc as well as outer space saavy, and said something recently that I've been rolling over in my heart a lot. God loves any given person more than He loves the stars, the sun, the galaxies, mountains, trees, or oceans that sometimes bring me to tears with their beauty. Hm. Wow. So, since God is loving me and you that much right now, I hope to live in that assurance and freedom.
I hope my friends are living in the freedom that comes from someone loving you unconditionally. Not because you're cool (because you are) and not because of anything that you can do or haven't done, but because Jesus chooses to.
Sorry if this seems at all preachy. I don't mean it to. I'm just saying that you my loved ones are loved by me and Jesus and I can't edit it to make it less of what I first wrote it to be since I have no time. =}