frustrated...WARNING: complaining follows
i'm feeling a little frustrated i guess. today it is that a school in Los Angeles called me for an interview, to come in the next two weeks. I am supposed to call the other schools I had interviews with a few weeks ago in San Fran to come to their school to teach a demo lesson and meet people there and interview more in-depth. I can't call them because I have to decide when to go there and look at plane tickets again, that are Expensive. As a back-up plan, I have not heard of any schools around here that are hiring. There are other schools I've heard about, in Florida, but I can't just wander around everywhere interviewing because that is crazy. But when you focus, you limit yourself, and I don't like to do that either, because I like having back-up plans. At the same time, if/when I get a job, I have to move somewhere and DO IT, likely somewhere new and familiar, which I want to do, at the same time is always hard to consider. Maybe it's that I don't like uncertainty, I'd like to know one way or the other.
I was also very frustrated last week, when finally after all these blood tests, the doctors said i have this thing called hashimoto's thyroiditis, which means that your immune system is producing antibodies against the thyroid. They don't know what causes it or what to do about it. You basically wait around and get blood tests periodically to see if your thyroid (which regulates metabolism, energy, part of the endocrine system) fails, and then they'll give you replacement thyroid hormone.
On the bright side, it is sunny out, so I went for a walk. I also finally submitted one of the novels I have to some publishing houses. What is getting on my nerves right now is how much validation by others is required. In school, it was the grades you get and your teacher's opinions. Now that I've graduated, it is people who might hire you, or editors or whoever.
I've also been preparing the syllabus for this summer when I am teaching a course called Writing and Imagination to 5th and 6th graders. It is harder than I thought, because I'll be teaching about 5 hours a day, for 15 days. One week is poetry, one week short story, one week memoir. I have been deciding what books to use, like I said before, and I think I chose them.
I was also very frustrated last week, when finally after all these blood tests, the doctors said i have this thing called hashimoto's thyroiditis, which means that your immune system is producing antibodies against the thyroid. They don't know what causes it or what to do about it. You basically wait around and get blood tests periodically to see if your thyroid (which regulates metabolism, energy, part of the endocrine system) fails, and then they'll give you replacement thyroid hormone.
On the bright side, it is sunny out, so I went for a walk. I also finally submitted one of the novels I have to some publishing houses. What is getting on my nerves right now is how much validation by others is required. In school, it was the grades you get and your teacher's opinions. Now that I've graduated, it is people who might hire you, or editors or whoever.
I've also been preparing the syllabus for this summer when I am teaching a course called Writing and Imagination to 5th and 6th graders. It is harder than I thought, because I'll be teaching about 5 hours a day, for 15 days. One week is poetry, one week short story, one week memoir. I have been deciding what books to use, like I said before, and I think I chose them.