"as i step to the edge of a shaddow of a doubt, with my conscious beating"
WHERE THE HELL DID THEY COME FROM!?!? THE HUGS!! WHERE!?!? TELL ME!!!
okay, i'm done.
i came on here and there's millions of hugs added. okay, maybe not millions but there's a lot. it freaked me out.
i don't come on here often but it's often enough.
the top of my mouth is bruised. i woke up from falling asleep this afternoon and it feels bruised.
i accidently sewed my sleve to my blanket today.
i actually did my Shakespeare report. or half of it. i have yet to do the oral presentation. i have to pull some courage out of my ass to get up infront of the room and do that.
friends with me are good right now. besides the fact Zack is all fucked up from Faith yet and he... oi, i can't explain it. he says he was in love with her and i used to think i knew what it was to be in love but i really never know anymore. i mean, i love a lot, and loved a lot, and i've destroyed myself from things that have happened, but i've never been totally destroyed over sometimes. some times now i'll miss Seth with a great passion and the one day i just started balling about it but, i've gotten better at trying to control my miss for people because i know i can never have them back.
ANY WAY! Derrick is now addicted to the dot game. he made me make a huge ass one. we have yet to finish it.
but just to cut it short. friends are good with me.
i'm trying to do better in school.
i try to ignore efforts from some people towards me right now.
i have a new diary. which i have been needing since august and i back then i thought i was receiving one from someone so i never went and got one and i guess with me locking things away i really didn't feel it necessary to get a new one.
gah! this is too long. i'm talking too much.
love: love
p.s. who ever did the hugs tell me!!! i want real hugs!!! gruar!
okay, i'm done.
i came on here and there's millions of hugs added. okay, maybe not millions but there's a lot. it freaked me out.
i don't come on here often but it's often enough.
the top of my mouth is bruised. i woke up from falling asleep this afternoon and it feels bruised.
i accidently sewed my sleve to my blanket today.
i actually did my Shakespeare report. or half of it. i have yet to do the oral presentation. i have to pull some courage out of my ass to get up infront of the room and do that.
friends with me are good right now. besides the fact Zack is all fucked up from Faith yet and he... oi, i can't explain it. he says he was in love with her and i used to think i knew what it was to be in love but i really never know anymore. i mean, i love a lot, and loved a lot, and i've destroyed myself from things that have happened, but i've never been totally destroyed over sometimes. some times now i'll miss Seth with a great passion and the one day i just started balling about it but, i've gotten better at trying to control my miss for people because i know i can never have them back.
ANY WAY! Derrick is now addicted to the dot game. he made me make a huge ass one. we have yet to finish it.
but just to cut it short. friends are good with me.
i'm trying to do better in school.
i try to ignore efforts from some people towards me right now.
i have a new diary. which i have been needing since august and i back then i thought i was receiving one from someone so i never went and got one and i guess with me locking things away i really didn't feel it necessary to get a new one.
gah! this is too long. i'm talking too much.
love: love
p.s. who ever did the hugs tell me!!! i want real hugs!!! gruar!