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I've been thinking alot lately; so many things are going on in my head it confuses me. I don't know who to trust, I don't know what to feel, missing people, and school is just a whole other story.
Many have lost my trust lately. I've had a huge reality check in the begining of the summer, and yet again another one has come along. I don't know whats going on with anything in my social life; if there even is one anymore.
I want to love someone and be loved back. Yeah I know, a change for me. I never really ever consider having somone, but it'd be nice for a change. There's no one in paticular that is practical, but what did you expect from around here?
I miss so many of my friends I made this summer. I've made so many friends just from work. All of the older guards making me feel accepted for once. I've gotten so close with some amazing people that I actually enjoy having a good time with. Ones that call me to ask me to do things with them. Ones that just call for a talk. Ones I can be myself with. Ones that like me for me. WOW! I miss them so much.
School.. ahh I have no idea what is going on with that. I try so hard yet my grades and dropping little by little. It upsets me when i give Algebra II 100% of my effot and only receive an 88% for a grade. English is just pathedic. I can't stay awake in that class because we watch too many movies. Honestly who is actually going to stay awake at 7:35 am and watch a movie of McBeth or Shakespere. I beg myself to stay awake, but I always find people poking me telling me its over; to wake up.
AHhHhhhHhHhh I am just rambling. w/e
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Many have lost my trust lately. I've had a huge reality check in the begining of the summer, and yet again another one has come along. I don't know whats going on with anything in my social life; if there even is one anymore.
I want to love someone and be loved back. Yeah I know, a change for me. I never really ever consider having somone, but it'd be nice for a change. There's no one in paticular that is practical, but what did you expect from around here?
I miss so many of my friends I made this summer. I've made so many friends just from work. All of the older guards making me feel accepted for once. I've gotten so close with some amazing people that I actually enjoy having a good time with. Ones that call me to ask me to do things with them. Ones that just call for a talk. Ones I can be myself with. Ones that like me for me. WOW! I miss them so much.
School.. ahh I have no idea what is going on with that. I try so hard yet my grades and dropping little by little. It upsets me when i give Algebra II 100% of my effot and only receive an 88% for a grade. English is just pathedic. I can't stay awake in that class because we watch too many movies. Honestly who is actually going to stay awake at 7:35 am and watch a movie of McBeth or Shakespere. I beg myself to stay awake, but I always find people poking me telling me its over; to wake up.
AHhHhhhHhHhh I am just rambling. w/e
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