weird day?
Ok... first of all be warned that it might be some vent ahead as I'm in a strange mood... I was perfectly happy this morning, my friend Graz was to bring me a Louis Vuitton purse (she imports them from NYC) and she brought my friends parfums but not my purse, sinec in in one of those "feminine days" I'm pretty sensitive and that put me in a bad mood... but just to clarify I've been waiting for my purse for 2 months now, but then I decided this shouldn't ruin my day and things got better =)
At work we had a nice lunch and ice-cream!!! yay! It was customer service day so we were invited and it was really nice. after that I decided to go back to work cause since we're not working on monday i had to leave everything ready for next tuesday. On the afternoon dave empire21 got connected which was all I needed to make my day =) but then beeing so far away I got sad ...
So everybody took off to spend the weekend in the coast with friends, wives, husbands, GF, BF and so on.. and guess what am I doing? NOTHING! only having a bbq with my friend Mary on sunday since her husband is going to another bbq with his friends.. oh yeah I'm such a party girl... can't you tell?
So I left the office with a bittersweet taste on my mouth thinking about life, dreams... and I started to think... why do I have to give up on things or people I love? this year was great for me cause I did a lot of changes I needed but it was also hard especially emotionally cause I gave up on the thing I love the most: perform, yeah I completely gave up on musical theatre, it was time for me to grow and think of what I'm doing with my life, where I would like to go and be in the future, so I decided to go back to college here or anywhere in the world but to go back, don't get me wrong, I'd love to become professional but I mean I still think about performing and tears burst from my eyes... well know I feel the same way about life itself.
I'm not doing what I love the most anymore, I'm not with the person I want to be with, I don't live in the country I would like to and most certainly I'm pretty much alone and right now I feel pathetic.Yes I got a grea familt that loves me and It's trully a blessing but why does everything else have to be so hard??? I need a break pleaseeee!!!!!!!!!
well guess what? time for me to go back to my sad lonely life, watch tv and read a book. hopefully things will look better tomorrow.