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[lehscutie23]

Eventful night. Yesterday was a really awesome day. Drama was pretty fun and then i hung out with Josh, Matt, Lindsey and Mike and we went to the beach. It was really fun. And josh got me the rest of the books to the Sweep series so i was totally excited lol. SO yea, it was a good day and now it was time to go home. So josh's aunt drove me home and i was a little nervous since i had hung up on my mom earlier in the day and figured she was going to be totally pissed at me. So i walk in the door, in a perfectly good mood. As soon as i get in there shes already going at me. "why didnt you call back?" "well, lets see, you WERE screaming at me through the phone, why would i call you back?" "Well you should have." "well i didnt. If you really wanted to hear from me, YOU have my number, you easily could have called me." And so on. Well she started yelling at me again so i was like "ok i need to get away from you NOW. So im leaving." And i bolted. I ran just about all the way down jenness st before she caught up to me. And when she did she was yelling at me to get into the car, which i refused to do and in the end i got my way and i stayed at Renees last night. Happy ending? i think not. Now basically my entire family is at war. My nana and my mom arent speaking. My dad has decided to join forces with my mom. So he calls today and tells me that i take her forgranted and that i dont do anything for her. He tries to explain her logic to me but he just doesnt get it. The only person that does is renee. You wanna know why i left so fast last night ? When my sister was my age, and her and my mom would get into arguments, my mom would end up completely freaking out and she would hit my sister. They would get into awful fist fights. I WAS NOT going to let that happen, so i left before it got that bad. Now i havta go home today and im honestly scared because i dont want to talk to her. She says she wants to know whats wrong but she wont understand. And it wont come out right anyways. Im so pissed at her. And at my dad. I cant believe he is on her side. He says that she just doesnt want to lose me. BUt the truth is, she has already lost me. ANd so hasnt he. I even told him today, when i graduate im moving as far away from them as possible, and i WILL NOT come back to visit either of them.Ill come back to visit renee and jp. THATS IT. I also told him i cant wait to be 18 cause that day im moving out. He doesnt believe me. We'll just have to wait and see whose right.

hopefully i dont lose everything as punishment. And i better be able to go out the rest of this week.