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i'm so tired.. my eyes hurt. today was a bit of a mess.. i'm going to bed now.. i have to be up at five am. i hope my co-workers can keep me laughing til four PM like today. then i'm off for the weekend. easy a with sophia, jj, collin and some friends on saturday. stoked. hopefully they don't cancel. i'm not really expecting it to happen though. i've become so used to people canceling that it doesn't really faze me anymore. thing about these guys is.. i know they are different. it's hard getting used to people who care. all my co-workers now are offering me rides home.. rides to work... and yet, here i am used to my co workers who drove past my house... and knew i lived a mere five minutes away from work and would ask me for gas money. ridiculous i know.. but i am used to asshole types of people.
i guess i need to get used to people caring.. being there.. wanting to hang out. it's been awhile and it's kind of hard to adapt. there's a lot of things i need to work on and i know i'm not perfect at all. god i am so far from perfect.... i wish i could write more but i am beyond exhausted and i feel sick. like... i'm drunk but not... just drunk off of no sleep at all.
i'm overwhelming. i'm exhausting.. i know. i am so full of love and i don't properly know how to branch it out. i'm learning.
goodnight xo.
i guess i need to get used to people caring.. being there.. wanting to hang out. it's been awhile and it's kind of hard to adapt. there's a lot of things i need to work on and i know i'm not perfect at all. god i am so far from perfect.... i wish i could write more but i am beyond exhausted and i feel sick. like... i'm drunk but not... just drunk off of no sleep at all.
i'm overwhelming. i'm exhausting.. i know. i am so full of love and i don't properly know how to branch it out. i'm learning.
goodnight xo.