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The bar thing on Sat was a huge mistake. I should've known it as I didn't feel at all like partying. I regret the loss of about 5 Euros. It was all in vain. We sat at the most popular bar of this fucking village, it was cold, I was tired and bored to death. I didn't really want to discuss the things we were talking about and I couldn't have cared less what Heidi said to me. I left at about 11 pm 'cause I thought there was no point whatsoever to remain there amid all those teenage idiots.
Now I feel like I have a flu and my driving lessons should be starting today. The question is, do I take them anyway, even though I'm not applying to Poliisikoulu within the next 3-5 years? My grandparents agreed to pay the price on the condition that I apply. I feel that if I don't, I owe them the 1,300 Euros. I can't afford to owe that kind of amounts of money.
Besides I'm not so very excited about the driving licence. Or anything like that.
It feels like I was a million miles away from where I physically am. It's like depression except that it's the opposite. I'm happy, but I'm too happy to be interested in anything. I've never felt like this before, except maybe for the time I'd been in Provinssirock. Then I was even more confused and could hardly remember what time of year we were living, how old I was or what my name was.
Hilla had called me yesterday. My cell was silent so I didn't know to answer. I don't know if I had answered even if I'd seen her call. I didn't return her call. She'd better see the consequences of her behaviour.
I feel way too weird. I hope this passes by. I don't know if this is positive or negative anymore.
I just want to be at the show again. That's all I really wish for. I told Flake I'd be sure to be there when they perform in Finland for the next time. And I have to meet them again.
Now I feel like I have a flu and my driving lessons should be starting today. The question is, do I take them anyway, even though I'm not applying to Poliisikoulu within the next 3-5 years? My grandparents agreed to pay the price on the condition that I apply. I feel that if I don't, I owe them the 1,300 Euros. I can't afford to owe that kind of amounts of money.
Besides I'm not so very excited about the driving licence. Or anything like that.
It feels like I was a million miles away from where I physically am. It's like depression except that it's the opposite. I'm happy, but I'm too happy to be interested in anything. I've never felt like this before, except maybe for the time I'd been in Provinssirock. Then I was even more confused and could hardly remember what time of year we were living, how old I was or what my name was.
Hilla had called me yesterday. My cell was silent so I didn't know to answer. I don't know if I had answered even if I'd seen her call. I didn't return her call. She'd better see the consequences of her behaviour.
I feel way too weird. I hope this passes by. I don't know if this is positive or negative anymore.
I just want to be at the show again. That's all I really wish for. I told Flake I'd be sure to be there when they perform in Finland for the next time. And I have to meet them again.