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-*New!* -Now drama free!-
So, posting, i been meaning to for a while, but i stay so busy its painful (yet almost satisfieing).
Lets see tonight, tonight i watched CSI/law and order with my dad from 2am-3am, both were very interesting.
CSI was about gang bangs (non sexually =P) people just beating the shit outa a random person for fun. (wowza)
and Law and order was about Terrorists and shit. Law & Order kinda put me into a mind trip, so thats probably why im posting.
Anyway i watched those shows with him, of course he fell asleep right before the end of the 2nd one, (15mins ish) but it was very idk, ..nice? i dont really spend any non computer time with my dad and it felt oddly good. The whole problem with this of course that i lost an hour of valueable sleep. Furthermore i have to wake up at the crack of like 8:30 (wtf!?) to do homework, cause im a slackass. We wont even talk about that math i dont even plan to study on.. =P. I have given up with math, i used to love how ordered and logical it was, but (if im to make an excuse thats sounds good..) its kinda stupid lately, find the vertex of that (easy example) then find its cosine and sine and then find its conic section, then do synthetic division, and meanwhile all these "students" take notes and feed off this knowledge im sitting there thinking OMFG Why the hell does this matter! WHY, and who cares! rawr!!!! of course instead im thinking about EQ or food or females, as if that matters
..moving on..
i been really curious about stuff in general, mainly about people.
I find myself asking people, why, asking how they are doing (and listening/caring), whats been up with them, things of that sort.. i dont know why, i guess this is me trying to understand people better. Not to gloat but i always thought myself a good people-reader, i usually no what they are thinkin about , what they are going to say, how they are going to react, and so on! but i have been finding that, although that was pretty true back in high school, that most people (even if i didnt know them, the people act/think) changed. This really snapped my curiousity i guess. Thats probably why i watched TV for the first time in months today, because they trapped my curiousity.
bah i lost my train of thought, amy//ess just IM'd me, at 4am, EQ friends for the win!
switching to a new topic, its kinda sad, but a lot of my online friendships are really close now, while a lot of my RL friends drifted, kinda depressing, but nothing i can do about it really.
diverging a little, thats why i dont post really, and if i do its in a massive surge, cause this whole posting thing is kinda depressing for me, i gotta actually think about wtf i did and reflect and think about all this shit, hell most the time, im lucky to get dressed (which i should go do here soon). now that im talking to amy//ess (in game name of essandemm of course!) i cant think of what else i was going to touch on in this spamtacular post.... one moment while i skim...
ok yes, life is so drama free, i dont even no what to say. Its not boring, but its like, ... nonstop ALMOST happiness? like, i feel good, im failing my classes horribly (not really but it makes me feel horrible-- only really math probably c or d), but ya i feel good, but theres someone/thing missing, oh right ashley, ya she gets her own section, let me make room for it.. ok, ill get to her lata. but ya, im restless still, and unsure, i dont know if this whole college thing is working out for me, i wouldnt mind working a dead end job for a while, then settling down with someone... as boring and cliche as that sounds.
sleep as much as i hate it, is a treasured commodity, i sleep deprive myself constantly--on purpose. If i was an insomniac things would be much easier for meh =P i get like 4-6 hours a night, and then sleep on weekends sometimes, (btw this weekend i sleep like, 12 hours each friday/sat, i think i orgasmed around hour 10 just cause of the fact i got so much good quality sleep. But after all that laying on my ass, i had to get back to work and sleep like, 5am-11am sunday (i have to set my alarm almost everyday now to monitor sleep vs fun intakes) (get'r done ///// ROCK ON!) hmmmmm what else can i ramble about.
the NBT line up im kinda disappointed by, the new venue = less boobies, less blood, less pot, almost no moshing... bah wtf maaaan
i have changed idk how, and i probably really dont care.
i have learned a lot, about people, about life, and i know i will learn more.
the real question for me is not do i know, but do i care lately. i file away so much shit, its quite humorous to be honest. (its funny but for some reason i dont seem to want to use acronyms for blogging! im confusing)
daaam its 4am, im going to be HATE'ing life tomorrow. oh well. (i need to get into the habit of naps, but im always so busy / caffinated. oh, thats another thing
Caffiene rules my life (i had to check spelling on my mountain dew can for that) ya, im so fucking addicted, i love it and hate it, i hate dependency.
but to diverge, free food/housing ftw. woops.... for the win.
Ashley, well isnt that a loaded topic, lets go back to something else for now! EQ sounds good, EQ is such a double edged sword, i love playing it but its really like, .... time consuming?..... hah
ok so ashley is coming down from nov 30 - Dec 7 hopefully i'll treat her right. I dont no what im more excited about, the possiblity of sex, or just her touch, i miss just laying down with her, or driving aimlessly with her (although i hated it then, because at the time, it was basically... like waiting for --- or bickering about something unrelated (but thats just my worthless male viewpoint))
Anyway im hoping i get to make that warm fuzzy feeling turn on, for both instances. I would lie if i said i didnt think about her almost all the time in at least some part of my mind. (my mind can actually think of a few things at once now its wierd, partitioning (spelling?) an ADD mind who knew!?)
Shes always looking down and to her right in the pics (2 or 3 ish) that she has sent me and shes never smiling =(. I asked her if she could send me a smiling one, but she said no can do.
=( /raises lowerlip above upper.
hhhhhhmmmmmmmmmmm
anything else to ramble on about?....
idk
if i think about something, ill edit this.!
(this is going to be a monster post, man oh man, if you read this, power to you.
****EDIT*****
1 more reason why robert butler should run for president. ----
: : [ Freak Trap ] : : . said:
woo
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Ritalinkid said:
what
. : : [ Freak Trap ] : : . said:
i solved a rubrik's cube
--
Ritalinkid said:
hahaa
--
. : : [ Freak Trap ] : : . said:
just finished it
which reminds me, i want to see "Man of the year" the new robin williams movie, but im not that big a loser to see it by myself, maybe i'll see it like 5 years from now when i watch TV one time.
*****EDIT
did i mentioned i typed this all in the dark? how cool am i.
So, posting, i been meaning to for a while, but i stay so busy its painful (yet almost satisfieing).
Lets see tonight, tonight i watched CSI/law and order with my dad from 2am-3am, both were very interesting.
CSI was about gang bangs (non sexually =P) people just beating the shit outa a random person for fun. (wowza)
and Law and order was about Terrorists and shit. Law & Order kinda put me into a mind trip, so thats probably why im posting.
Anyway i watched those shows with him, of course he fell asleep right before the end of the 2nd one, (15mins ish) but it was very idk, ..nice? i dont really spend any non computer time with my dad and it felt oddly good. The whole problem with this of course that i lost an hour of valueable sleep. Furthermore i have to wake up at the crack of like 8:30 (wtf!?) to do homework, cause im a slackass. We wont even talk about that math i dont even plan to study on.. =P. I have given up with math, i used to love how ordered and logical it was, but (if im to make an excuse thats sounds good..) its kinda stupid lately, find the vertex of that (easy example) then find its cosine and sine and then find its conic section, then do synthetic division, and meanwhile all these "students" take notes and feed off this knowledge im sitting there thinking OMFG Why the hell does this matter! WHY, and who cares! rawr!!!! of course instead im thinking about EQ or food or females, as if that matters
..moving on..
i been really curious about stuff in general, mainly about people.
I find myself asking people, why, asking how they are doing (and listening/caring), whats been up with them, things of that sort.. i dont know why, i guess this is me trying to understand people better. Not to gloat but i always thought myself a good people-reader, i usually no what they are thinkin about , what they are going to say, how they are going to react, and so on! but i have been finding that, although that was pretty true back in high school, that most people (even if i didnt know them, the people act/think) changed. This really snapped my curiousity i guess. Thats probably why i watched TV for the first time in months today, because they trapped my curiousity.
bah i lost my train of thought, amy//ess just IM'd me, at 4am, EQ friends for the win!
switching to a new topic, its kinda sad, but a lot of my online friendships are really close now, while a lot of my RL friends drifted, kinda depressing, but nothing i can do about it really.
diverging a little, thats why i dont post really, and if i do its in a massive surge, cause this whole posting thing is kinda depressing for me, i gotta actually think about wtf i did and reflect and think about all this shit, hell most the time, im lucky to get dressed (which i should go do here soon). now that im talking to amy//ess (in game name of essandemm of course!) i cant think of what else i was going to touch on in this spamtacular post.... one moment while i skim...
ok yes, life is so drama free, i dont even no what to say. Its not boring, but its like, ... nonstop ALMOST happiness? like, i feel good, im failing my classes horribly (not really but it makes me feel horrible-- only really math probably c or d), but ya i feel good, but theres someone/thing missing, oh right ashley, ya she gets her own section, let me make room for it.. ok, ill get to her lata. but ya, im restless still, and unsure, i dont know if this whole college thing is working out for me, i wouldnt mind working a dead end job for a while, then settling down with someone... as boring and cliche as that sounds.
sleep as much as i hate it, is a treasured commodity, i sleep deprive myself constantly--on purpose. If i was an insomniac things would be much easier for meh =P i get like 4-6 hours a night, and then sleep on weekends sometimes, (btw this weekend i sleep like, 12 hours each friday/sat, i think i orgasmed around hour 10 just cause of the fact i got so much good quality sleep. But after all that laying on my ass, i had to get back to work and sleep like, 5am-11am sunday (i have to set my alarm almost everyday now to monitor sleep vs fun intakes) (get'r done ///// ROCK ON!) hmmmmm what else can i ramble about.
the NBT line up im kinda disappointed by, the new venue = less boobies, less blood, less pot, almost no moshing... bah wtf maaaan
i have changed idk how, and i probably really dont care.
i have learned a lot, about people, about life, and i know i will learn more.
the real question for me is not do i know, but do i care lately. i file away so much shit, its quite humorous to be honest. (its funny but for some reason i dont seem to want to use acronyms for blogging! im confusing)
daaam its 4am, im going to be HATE'ing life tomorrow. oh well. (i need to get into the habit of naps, but im always so busy / caffinated. oh, thats another thing
Caffiene rules my life (i had to check spelling on my mountain dew can for that) ya, im so fucking addicted, i love it and hate it, i hate dependency.
but to diverge, free food/housing ftw. woops.... for the win.
Ashley, well isnt that a loaded topic, lets go back to something else for now! EQ sounds good, EQ is such a double edged sword, i love playing it but its really like, .... time consuming?..... hah
ok so ashley is coming down from nov 30 - Dec 7 hopefully i'll treat her right. I dont no what im more excited about, the possiblity of sex, or just her touch, i miss just laying down with her, or driving aimlessly with her (although i hated it then, because at the time, it was basically... like waiting for --- or bickering about something unrelated (but thats just my worthless male viewpoint))
Anyway im hoping i get to make that warm fuzzy feeling turn on, for both instances. I would lie if i said i didnt think about her almost all the time in at least some part of my mind. (my mind can actually think of a few things at once now its wierd, partitioning (spelling?) an ADD mind who knew!?)
Shes always looking down and to her right in the pics (2 or 3 ish) that she has sent me and shes never smiling =(. I asked her if she could send me a smiling one, but she said no can do.
=( /raises lowerlip above upper.
hhhhhhmmmmmmmmmmm
anything else to ramble on about?....
idk
if i think about something, ill edit this.!
(this is going to be a monster post, man oh man, if you read this, power to you.
****EDIT*****
1 more reason why robert butler should run for president. ----
: : [ Freak Trap ] : : . said:
woo
--
Ritalinkid said:
what
. : : [ Freak Trap ] : : . said:
i solved a rubrik's cube
--
Ritalinkid said:
hahaa
--
. : : [ Freak Trap ] : : . said:
just finished it
which reminds me, i want to see "Man of the year" the new robin williams movie, but im not that big a loser to see it by myself, maybe i'll see it like 5 years from now when i watch TV one time.
*****EDIT
did i mentioned i typed this all in the dark? how cool am i.