Feb 23, 2006 19:06
Some of you may or may not have noticed that I havent exactly been present and accounted for recently. I've kinda stopped caring about anything ahving to do with CMU...honostly, I'm not happy here...
on a realistic note, I've decided that altho I'm miserable here, I've seen my friends in the same predicament jsut run away and transfer and they now hate their lives even more than they did here...so i've decided to see how the rest of the semester goes, think about it a lot and discuss it with my parents and david over summer and weigh all the pros and cons of it and see if it's even realistic.
I jsut know that I've got to change something in my life having to do with CMU cuz whenever I got SVSU or home or to visit a friend somewhere else, coming back here is like a trip to the dentist...I dread it....but I don't want to make a mistake or jsut do something on whim like I'm prone to doing...once I get an idea into my head, I do it and there's no stopping me until I get what I want
David is the best thing in my life right now and he's an hour away and 3 hours away on the weekends...and my family which is also very important to me is 2 hours away...it sucks a lot...we'll see what happens
thank god for spring break in a week...i need it