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[legolita]

"You don’t have to be afraid of your feelings. Ever. No matter what they are. And no one knows you better than you know yourself. So don’t let people try to convince you that you’re someone you’re not."
- Lois Foutley

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hey girl hey

[whatshouldwe]

Thank you for the congratulations but I haven't accepted yet. I have until this friday to decide whether or not I should drop $200 for them to hold the spot for me until July when I have to pay additional fees and then I'm off to law school in September.(so fast!) In the meantime, I've been spamming and calling ubc nursing/law and BCIT nursing to ask about their programs in hopes it'll help me make a final decision but I'm not really sure since I keep waffling back and forth between going/not going.

I've actually been in a worse mood -higher stress levels- since I found out I got into law school...like, that's an actual choice now and I have to choose. Which makes me angry because I realized I don't really know what I want and no one can help me. I also feel shitty because I am bad at dealing with stress and inadequate for not getting into a better law school.

I dunno what is wrong with me. Being in school makes me moody. I'm doing a fulltime course load-4 days of school a week- plus 2-3 days of work too. A lot of people my age do this but I'll never understand how they even do it. I feel like a trauma victim, when I have some downtime I literally can zone out and stare at the wall for an hour and a half. So sorry for being absent. That said, I do love being back in school. The real world is too real. I'm not the best at handling stress but I also hate not having any independence so this hell is my own choosing/creation and I feel a small degree of satisfaction with that. How have you been doing?? I'd like to hear an update if you have one to share :)