breathing again
wow, i really have issues with keeping up with this thing. I would post more but lets see I didnt have life this semester. I dub this "semester without sleep." Oh how nice it is to almost be done. However, here I am yet again unable to fall asleep. This must be some kind of mean trick. I am being taunted. My subconcious is laughing in my face as it keeps me awake and unable to dimiss the fears and worries of the day. I have presentation in the morning, one in which i have prepared minimal for. I'm sick of doing minimal. It is not a part of who I am and I need more efficient closure in my life. Blessings are still pouring out around me though. I do not deserve these blessings in fact I deserve quite the opposite. Yet again abounding Love shines through all inadaquecies. Waiting is so hard. I complain and complain and then beg and then complain again and in the end everything turns out just fine. Yet I spent the majority of my time wasting away without trust. This is a vicious cycle. God, teach me to wait and enjoy waiting on You.