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i was working on an activity in biology today, with logan (aka the guy i've liked since sixth grade). we were playing with these beads that you can stick together. anyway, i don't remember what he did, i think he made a really long chain of them or something, but he said something like: "wow, aren't i amazing?". & without thinking, i replied "yeah...you are amazing", but it was in one of those 'omigod-i-love-you" kind of ways. i was sort of embarrassed. but then he paused for a moment & said "my girlfriend doesn't think so", & it just broke my heart. i hate knowing that i can give him more love & affection & appreciation than his girlfriend, even though she has more in common with him (& he likes her instead of me). the only hope i can see right now is the fact that he's a sophomore like me, but his girlfriend's a senior, meaning she's gone next year. however, there's this other girl in my biology class who likes him too (i think), so she'll probably get to him first. it seems there's always some kind of complication. does that mean that it's not meant to be? no. it means i have to try harder. maybe actually telling him how i feel would speed things up a bit. then again, i'd hate to ruin the sort-of friendship we have right now. lol...teenage drama. how fun!