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I haven't forgotten about this journal, it's just that I've barely had any time to even update on the other one. Things have been insane in my head lately and I've been taking a lot of time out to try to deal with the madness going on. Yes, there's a lot of madness in my head. I don't let anyone see it though. It's not all me being antisocial that has kept me away from the dance nights and social gatherings, I've just not felt myself at all. I've also had problems feeling like I've not been taken seriously. Often I feel like I'm just another person to be around people, and it doesn't matter that it's ME, just that I'm a warm body... a space filler so to speak. While I don't know that it's true, it's how I've felt. So, I've been trying to get back into that place where that's ok with me but I can't seem to find it. I want to be more appreciated I guess. I just don't know how to go about it. Maybe I don't deserve it at all. I just have been feeling very...replaceable. I dunno.