I feel awful...
There are two major things that need to be taken care of in this journal. Two things that I have messed up and that I need to fix. Two things that I feel absolutely horrible about.
1. It has been brought to my attention that I have offended a certain person who has recently read my journal. When I found out about this, I was shocked. Not because they got upset about it, but because I did something so horrible. I don't even know this person and I said some things that I shouldn't have. I said some things that werne't necessarily true. I said some things that are out of character. At the time I felt threatened and in an obscure way, a little jealous. I was upset and I didn't know how to react. That's how I reacted, by posting some things that were exaggerations and based on emotion, not logic. I was confused and upset and I said some things that I didn't mean. I feel awful because I don't even know this person and I judged her without ever giving her a chance. Granted, the situtation is weird, but she still didn't deserve what I did to her. I feel awful. I can't believe I fell that low as to prematurely judge someone on events that I didn't even witness. I can't believe I was so stupid. Most of you reading this don't know what I am talking about. But I know one person knows. To her, I am really, really sorry. I am sorry for judging you, for posting that, for not taking a moment to calm down. I am sorry for doing this to you. I feel like an idiot. I look like an idiot. I am so sorry. I barely know you and I am not asking for a great friendship with you, but just for you to know, that I did not mean what I said. I acted out of anger and that is never, ever someone's true emotions. I am sorry.
This next part seems very untimely after that last thing but, I need to do this as well.
2. Secondly, I was reminded today that I never said anything about my 6 month annivesary. I meant to but never did. I am so sorry, sweetie. My ex boyfriend wasn't great. We went out longer than 6 months but that time was never celebrated, never remembered, never special. This however, was absolutley amazing! I am in the greatest relationship I will ever have. Six months is so wonderful. I cna't believe I have been this happy for this long. It amazes me that someone can put up with me for that long. Tha in itself is a major task. I am so happy. Everything is wonderful. This is everything I cold ever ask for. I don't need anything, I have been so blessed. Sometimes I think i am in a dream, but then, when I realize I'm not my smile gets even wider because this reality is so great. Thank you so much sweetie, thank you for dealing with me. Thank you for being with me. Thank you for caring for me. I am sorry this is so late. i told you I would do it and I feel so bad that it has taken me this long to do it. I still mean every word, though. I can't wait for what tomorrow will be, what it will be with you. Every day is so wonderful. I can't wait for our 8 month...it's in about 2 weeks. Sorry, sweetie. But I finally did do it.
I am so happy that I took care of those. I just hope that those two people will be able to see how sorry I am. I feel awful in both cases. This is the worst feeling in the world.
I am so sorry. Please forgive me.
1. It has been brought to my attention that I have offended a certain person who has recently read my journal. When I found out about this, I was shocked. Not because they got upset about it, but because I did something so horrible. I don't even know this person and I said some things that I shouldn't have. I said some things that werne't necessarily true. I said some things that are out of character. At the time I felt threatened and in an obscure way, a little jealous. I was upset and I didn't know how to react. That's how I reacted, by posting some things that were exaggerations and based on emotion, not logic. I was confused and upset and I said some things that I didn't mean. I feel awful because I don't even know this person and I judged her without ever giving her a chance. Granted, the situtation is weird, but she still didn't deserve what I did to her. I feel awful. I can't believe I fell that low as to prematurely judge someone on events that I didn't even witness. I can't believe I was so stupid. Most of you reading this don't know what I am talking about. But I know one person knows. To her, I am really, really sorry. I am sorry for judging you, for posting that, for not taking a moment to calm down. I am sorry for doing this to you. I feel like an idiot. I look like an idiot. I am so sorry. I barely know you and I am not asking for a great friendship with you, but just for you to know, that I did not mean what I said. I acted out of anger and that is never, ever someone's true emotions. I am sorry.
This next part seems very untimely after that last thing but, I need to do this as well.
2. Secondly, I was reminded today that I never said anything about my 6 month annivesary. I meant to but never did. I am so sorry, sweetie. My ex boyfriend wasn't great. We went out longer than 6 months but that time was never celebrated, never remembered, never special. This however, was absolutley amazing! I am in the greatest relationship I will ever have. Six months is so wonderful. I cna't believe I have been this happy for this long. It amazes me that someone can put up with me for that long. Tha in itself is a major task. I am so happy. Everything is wonderful. This is everything I cold ever ask for. I don't need anything, I have been so blessed. Sometimes I think i am in a dream, but then, when I realize I'm not my smile gets even wider because this reality is so great. Thank you so much sweetie, thank you for dealing with me. Thank you for being with me. Thank you for caring for me. I am sorry this is so late. i told you I would do it and I feel so bad that it has taken me this long to do it. I still mean every word, though. I can't wait for what tomorrow will be, what it will be with you. Every day is so wonderful. I can't wait for our 8 month...it's in about 2 weeks. Sorry, sweetie. But I finally did do it.
I am so happy that I took care of those. I just hope that those two people will be able to see how sorry I am. I feel awful in both cases. This is the worst feeling in the world.
I am so sorry. Please forgive me.