Been awhile
I just realized that the first time i can remember acknowledging death, like somebody i truly felt i knew was gone for good, would be when Gorilla Monsoon Died. Not that people in my life didn't die before hand but i never really saw any of those people. To me, and i truly hate admitting to this, at the time they were just $20 at Christmas. Wow, i suck. Monsoon though, he was with me every Saturday, right after Ronin Warriors, i got my Saturday Superstars and him and Bobby the Brain really heralded in my weekends which till this day are my favorite time.
So that begs the question, how important is a weekend? On the bare end of it, it's just a labled cyclic amount of time, broadly based on God's Seventh Day for rest. Then i think back, did the B.C. guys really have 8-5's? I thought they were mostly slaves who really had no choice or beggars or blacksmiths who just really worked as needed. Kind of weird to think that if the "weekends" got moved to Tuesday, Wednesday, would we all feel the excitment on Monday at around 4:45pm that we feel on Friday? MNM would now me Monday Night Magic instead of Candy.
Enough with odd tangents with loose connections for brittle transistions.
Kennedy is doing incredible. She amazes me everyday. She's getting a lot more fluid with her speaking, more complete sentences, extremely enveloped in Spongebob and the Backyardigans, Backyardigans awesome show BTW. She really makes my days so much more complete. For example, on occasion, she'll say "Awww Matt, I Love You". She says Matt because that's What Michelle calls me, i don't mind so much, she does say, "Daddy? Chocolate Milk?" or "Daddy, come on, Zombies....shhhh!" Well...more like, "Ooombies"
Anyways, she really blows me away and i hope i'm doing all the right parenting stuff. We brush our teeth, still have trouble with the potty, she fakes it then runs off naked ususally. I've become a little bit better at watching my language but i do let some things slip which i hear almost immediately out of her mouth. Like when some idiot was trying to turn from the right most lane like there wasn't a median which of course prompted a "Come the fuck on!" from me, which prompted a "Fuck, Come on" from Kennedy. You can't help but laugh at those situations, like when you see something fall on someone, not something fatal but like a tree limb or some other above them item...just sort of laugh, no matter how wrong it is.
I feel like Michelle and i are doing better than we ever have. Freedom to pursue my hobbies has not been an issue in the past 6 months or so. I still get mad sometimes and just refuse to talk about it and turn things into terrible days or overreact to minor things, but they've become few and far between. We had a real rough patch late last year but maybe a month or two after we moved into our new house it started to smooth out again. We're close to where we want to be again i think. That makes me really happy.
In other news, i'm looking into purchasing a ITG2 Dedicab, roughly 7K with shipping and permits and business licenses, and putting it at Community Center, Ye Olde Fashion Ice Cream Shop, or the student Rec Center at Trident. I've looked into weekly revenues for our arcade here which is a 1 working pad Megamix, still bringing in 150 a week but when he had supernova it was closer to 225. Meaning that if i invest 7k i can make my money back in a little over a year, assuming i have to profit share like 15% with whatever venue i land it at.
Starting to really get into Magic again. It's a lot of fun, we finally have sanctioned tournament support so there is actually a reason to play and we've developed like a homegrown forum for decks and stuff, tappedoutgames.freeforums.org, if youre' interested. This has unfortunately though consumed a lot of my time and the gym/dancing is becoming less of a priority, especially since i've gained roughly 100lbs. So i'm at 310 right now, recent highest was 348, all time being 489. I just need to find a good balance i think and get that discipline i had once back. It's really discouraging but nowhere near as bad as i was, which unfortunately at times, i admit, is sort of an enabler for my eating habits and "i'll do it tomorrow" attitude.
Job life, it sucks. I have a good job but they're recently let go of 5 employee's and i barely dodged a bullet as it was between me, who's been with the company for almost 2 years vs. an 8 year veteran. I made it but with the layoffs we have to save money by cutting the security guards hours and having the office share a 4-midnight shift. Which leaves my division of the job to cover 4 desks instead of 1. Extremely stressful, extremely infuriating as well most of the time. On the flip side though, it's a job where i can be myself most of the time and the immediate people i work with i enjoy, some people on the other end of things really piss me off but in the office it's usually tolerable if not beneficial to be around these people.
Aside from this, i really want to Backyard Wrestle one more time. Just once, nothing to insane, and with Richard. That would make my day. I just want to actually do some of the things that have always been in my head. Like a retirement match from something that was never actually a career.
That's all i can think of, i know it's just scraping a lot of surfaces but i decided to write, i haven't done that since college and this entry probably shows that.
So that begs the question, how important is a weekend? On the bare end of it, it's just a labled cyclic amount of time, broadly based on God's Seventh Day for rest. Then i think back, did the B.C. guys really have 8-5's? I thought they were mostly slaves who really had no choice or beggars or blacksmiths who just really worked as needed. Kind of weird to think that if the "weekends" got moved to Tuesday, Wednesday, would we all feel the excitment on Monday at around 4:45pm that we feel on Friday? MNM would now me Monday Night Magic instead of Candy.
Enough with odd tangents with loose connections for brittle transistions.
Kennedy is doing incredible. She amazes me everyday. She's getting a lot more fluid with her speaking, more complete sentences, extremely enveloped in Spongebob and the Backyardigans, Backyardigans awesome show BTW. She really makes my days so much more complete. For example, on occasion, she'll say "Awww Matt, I Love You". She says Matt because that's What Michelle calls me, i don't mind so much, she does say, "Daddy? Chocolate Milk?" or "Daddy, come on, Zombies....shhhh!" Well...more like, "Ooombies"
Anyways, she really blows me away and i hope i'm doing all the right parenting stuff. We brush our teeth, still have trouble with the potty, she fakes it then runs off naked ususally. I've become a little bit better at watching my language but i do let some things slip which i hear almost immediately out of her mouth. Like when some idiot was trying to turn from the right most lane like there wasn't a median which of course prompted a "Come the fuck on!" from me, which prompted a "Fuck, Come on" from Kennedy. You can't help but laugh at those situations, like when you see something fall on someone, not something fatal but like a tree limb or some other above them item...just sort of laugh, no matter how wrong it is.
I feel like Michelle and i are doing better than we ever have. Freedom to pursue my hobbies has not been an issue in the past 6 months or so. I still get mad sometimes and just refuse to talk about it and turn things into terrible days or overreact to minor things, but they've become few and far between. We had a real rough patch late last year but maybe a month or two after we moved into our new house it started to smooth out again. We're close to where we want to be again i think. That makes me really happy.
In other news, i'm looking into purchasing a ITG2 Dedicab, roughly 7K with shipping and permits and business licenses, and putting it at Community Center, Ye Olde Fashion Ice Cream Shop, or the student Rec Center at Trident. I've looked into weekly revenues for our arcade here which is a 1 working pad Megamix, still bringing in 150 a week but when he had supernova it was closer to 225. Meaning that if i invest 7k i can make my money back in a little over a year, assuming i have to profit share like 15% with whatever venue i land it at.
Starting to really get into Magic again. It's a lot of fun, we finally have sanctioned tournament support so there is actually a reason to play and we've developed like a homegrown forum for decks and stuff, tappedoutgames.freeforums.org, if youre' interested. This has unfortunately though consumed a lot of my time and the gym/dancing is becoming less of a priority, especially since i've gained roughly 100lbs. So i'm at 310 right now, recent highest was 348, all time being 489. I just need to find a good balance i think and get that discipline i had once back. It's really discouraging but nowhere near as bad as i was, which unfortunately at times, i admit, is sort of an enabler for my eating habits and "i'll do it tomorrow" attitude.
Job life, it sucks. I have a good job but they're recently let go of 5 employee's and i barely dodged a bullet as it was between me, who's been with the company for almost 2 years vs. an 8 year veteran. I made it but with the layoffs we have to save money by cutting the security guards hours and having the office share a 4-midnight shift. Which leaves my division of the job to cover 4 desks instead of 1. Extremely stressful, extremely infuriating as well most of the time. On the flip side though, it's a job where i can be myself most of the time and the immediate people i work with i enjoy, some people on the other end of things really piss me off but in the office it's usually tolerable if not beneficial to be around these people.
Aside from this, i really want to Backyard Wrestle one more time. Just once, nothing to insane, and with Richard. That would make my day. I just want to actually do some of the things that have always been in my head. Like a retirement match from something that was never actually a career.
That's all i can think of, i know it's just scraping a lot of surfaces but i decided to write, i haven't done that since college and this entry probably shows that.