I went out with Susan again to dinner at
Wa, which was about the same as lunch, except I spent a lot more money. It began and ended about the same way, and I really felt awkward about how I was acting. I just didn't feel like myself. I figured that maybe this is a new side of me that I'm discovering. Usually, I blend in to many different groups of friends that I have. I have my drinking friends, my Magic friends, my high school friends, and my work friends. I act differently around all of them, each "personality" displaying different traits of myself. With Susan, I tend to stammer a lot, touch my chin, act smart, feel nervous, and agree with a lot of things I wouldn't normally agree with. This is a very strange transition, since I'm trying to be more likable to her, because I really want her to like me as more than a friend. It's all frustrating and exciting at once, which is making me go a bit nuts.
I'm gonna see Susan again Saturday night. I have the burden of planning the evening. We might wander around downtown Winter Park or something. I really have no idea what to do. All I know is that I have to "make a move" or something, which is giving me the fits, because it's gonna go quite awkwardly. That's how I roll!
P.S.
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