I have eye boogers
I haven't felt totally awesome about myself lately. I just feel like I'm not a good person. I'm not sure how to explain it really. I am reminded every now and then that I am not great.
I never called back the people that got me my current job. If it wasn't for a nice Japanese woman I used to work with, and a loyal Rangetsu customer that referred who doesn't even know me, I would not even be in Orlando. I don't even know if they know that I got the job, but I never called them to tell them I did and thank them for their help. One of the chefs at work who knows the Rangetsu loyalist reminds me of this every now and then.
This reminds me of how I tend to use up people and forget about them when I move on to another phase in my life. Maybe I burn too many bridges. I don't even know how they catch on fire. I just tend to move on quickly and forget the past. It makes me wonder if I'll even make any long-standing friends, and if I even have any right now. I've become somewhat antisocial lately because of this.
I wouldn't want to hang out with me, but for some reason I am still trying. Tomorrow I'm going downtown with Billy D. and whoever else decides to go. I'm meeting Nikki on her 2nd bachelorette party. We'll probably get into some sort of dumb trouble, but I hope Billy has a good time. He's going through a lot of shit and I'm trying to break open his shell a bit and show him a decent night. No, I will not have sex with him.
I really dislike my life at this point.
I never called back the people that got me my current job. If it wasn't for a nice Japanese woman I used to work with, and a loyal Rangetsu customer that referred who doesn't even know me, I would not even be in Orlando. I don't even know if they know that I got the job, but I never called them to tell them I did and thank them for their help. One of the chefs at work who knows the Rangetsu loyalist reminds me of this every now and then.
This reminds me of how I tend to use up people and forget about them when I move on to another phase in my life. Maybe I burn too many bridges. I don't even know how they catch on fire. I just tend to move on quickly and forget the past. It makes me wonder if I'll even make any long-standing friends, and if I even have any right now. I've become somewhat antisocial lately because of this.
I wouldn't want to hang out with me, but for some reason I am still trying. Tomorrow I'm going downtown with Billy D. and whoever else decides to go. I'm meeting Nikki on her 2nd bachelorette party. We'll probably get into some sort of dumb trouble, but I hope Billy has a good time. He's going through a lot of shit and I'm trying to break open his shell a bit and show him a decent night. No, I will not have sex with him.
I really dislike my life at this point.