And dream i do.
I've felt so odd for teh last couple of days...
i dont know why
i just do.
recenlty i dont feel like i fit in with kati and cathy.
like on sunday it was just so blah.
there was a part that wanted me to be with them, yet there was was another part that just wanted to walk away.
the cracks are forming.
i dont know why.
i guess it was mainly at church;
i just like feel so cynical for saying this
but i mean yeah
jo really pissed me off though
like when we're saying my new years resolution should be to get a man,
and he's like whose fault is it you dont have one?
what teh fuck. im 14, and we were playing around.
im sorry
but my respect for him has really deplepted(sp).
i just wanted to sceam at him he was just being used for sex.
to give up all hope.
to tell him just to stop.
how they both constantly lie to eachother
how it kills me to see him cry
because he was cheated on
even though he cheats on him aswell.
to scream at him about how he doesnt need to impress me
by lieing about how all the guys grab him
answer me this
if they all grab you
why are you so lonely
if they allo grab you
why am i waiting for you
how he tells me to call him
yet he cant find teh time to call me
the numoris times he drops his hints
answer me this
if you really want to talk to me
call me
to whisper in his ear
how ive had my eyes on him
how i secertly think of what it'd be like for us to be together
i know he's taken
that just makes the choice so much more interesting.
yet how can i do that
to him
is it best to let sleeping dogs lie?
to hold him close
and have him know
he is loved
and have him know
he really is beautiful
and have him know
how he can do better
yet
he slowly is stettling for what he doesnt want.
how it hurts to know he crys
because he gets attached to easily
i cant meet him
i know i will fall
and i cant do that to you
all the lights you surrond him with
makes me want him more
i cant do that to you
dont let me meet him
dont do it.
we shall fall
i dont know why
i just do.
recenlty i dont feel like i fit in with kati and cathy.
like on sunday it was just so blah.
there was a part that wanted me to be with them, yet there was was another part that just wanted to walk away.
the cracks are forming.
i dont know why.
i guess it was mainly at church;
i just like feel so cynical for saying this
but i mean yeah
jo really pissed me off though
like when we're saying my new years resolution should be to get a man,
and he's like whose fault is it you dont have one?
what teh fuck. im 14, and we were playing around.
im sorry
but my respect for him has really deplepted(sp).
i just wanted to sceam at him he was just being used for sex.
to give up all hope.
to tell him just to stop.
how they both constantly lie to eachother
how it kills me to see him cry
because he was cheated on
even though he cheats on him aswell.
to scream at him about how he doesnt need to impress me
by lieing about how all the guys grab him
answer me this
if they all grab you
why are you so lonely
if they allo grab you
why am i waiting for you
how he tells me to call him
yet he cant find teh time to call me
the numoris times he drops his hints
answer me this
if you really want to talk to me
call me
to whisper in his ear
how ive had my eyes on him
how i secertly think of what it'd be like for us to be together
i know he's taken
that just makes the choice so much more interesting.
yet how can i do that
to him
is it best to let sleeping dogs lie?
to hold him close
and have him know
he is loved
and have him know
he really is beautiful
and have him know
how he can do better
yet
he slowly is stettling for what he doesnt want.
how it hurts to know he crys
because he gets attached to easily
i cant meet him
i know i will fall
and i cant do that to you
all the lights you surrond him with
makes me want him more
i cant do that to you
dont let me meet him
dont do it.
we shall fall