Taking it one breath at a time...

[legallyspacey]

I am having a lot of trouble with my asthma this weekend. I'm actually a little freaked out about it. My inhaler doesn't seem to be helping much and I feel really weak because I'm not getting enough oxygen. I'd go to the hospital except I can't afford it. I'm hoping I'll be okay to wait until tomorrow when I can see my doctor. I'm kinda scared though. I called this nurse hotline to get a nurse's opinion on my symptoms and she is like, go to the hospital now because if you go into a full blown asthma attack you can die. That didn't exactly calm my nerves. I think they have to say that though, for liability reasons. If they told me they think I'm okay to wait and then I die then its on their heads. I'm just so frustrated though. I called off of work today, I get so tired being up and around for more than an hour. I just need to rest. I feel really bad though because we are short staffed. its really bad timing for me to not be well. damn allergy season.
on a positive note, I threw a barbeque party for emilio's birthday on friday and it went really well. He had a really good time and I could tell he was really happy. He was smiling all night and kept giving me kisses and saying thank you. I'm so glad I did a good job! I loved the presents I gave him to. yay!
anyway, I'm going to lay down and watch chick flicks and hopefully rest.